a/n: hello! i hope everyone is okay!! im sorry if the writing in my chapters are changing a bit im just experimenting oh and aurelia in this chapter and maybe in a few others with be struggling with mh and if anyone out there is please know ur are loved and im proud of u! AND I CANT BELIEVE 34 PEOPLE HAS READ MY STORY AH!! im so happy i cant😭 any iloveyou all!
instagram,irl,imessage TW!!: mental health issues
BEING alone is one this i have always hated,i hate the feeling of being alone i hate having to be alone instead of just occupying my mind at all times but not everyone can do that.
after everything with my past and my ex my life has changed but recently memories have come flowing in and the next minute im shutting completely off and isolating myself from the world.one word i hate is afraid and im afraid of love im scared for myself but mostly sam i just dont think im ready to experience love again although having sam there and spending time with him makes me feel out of my mind i just cant help feel trapped.
TRAPPED inside the whole HE created and i hate it and every part of me hates him i cant even have his name come out of my mouth. he completely ruined love for me and i hate him for it.after finding out that he just used me for my background and behind my back 24/7 going out with girls i just thought every guy is the same and nothing is gonna change and that was what broke me.
aurelia seleen was broken from love
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@aurelia.seleen: hi everyone recently you have all seen how i have been fine and posting as usual but over that period of time i have shut down into my hole again so i will be taking time of social media including youtube and im sorry for this i just dont want you guys to see my worst when i could be at my best but i will make sure im safe and letting my friends know whats going on most of the time anyways continuing on i wont go into much detail as most of u already know about my past and so on but alot of stuff has returned and have fallen back into that stage but ilove and appreciate you all so much anyway aurelia out ❣️ liked by samgolbach,tarayummy,colbybrock and 37.5million others
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IMESSAGE tara and aurelia
7:55 pm emoprincess💝: lia do u wanna come over for a bit we need to talk ❤️
lia🍂: yeah sure be over in 10.
emoprincess💝:okay see you soon drive safely yh lia🍂 has liked this message ❤️
"SO what is it that we need to talk about" i hesitantly turned my head towards tara already knowing whats about to come
"aurelia you already know and we have been through this okay i know your stuggling again but seriously you need to give sam a chance and let him in lia" softly smiling at me to try to ease her words "i understand tara but im in a bad place i cant do that all over again and get hurt because i put my trust in another guy i got hurt bad i cant handle this again"blinking away the stinging tears that are just bursting to come out
"i know i know but AURELIA LET GO OF THE PAST ITS NOW OR NEVER"
those words sunk into me like a thousand peices have just been broken i needed to let go of the past but having memories filled of all the times i was brought happiness and them being crushed filled my head but in that moment all i could think about was SAM the only person who never let me down but i held back because IM AFRAID.
"lia" my body jolted staring at the one person who could simply look through me and instantly know whats wrong with me.
"yeah"
"i invited colby jake kat and sam over for while you wanna stay or go in the other room whatever your comfortable with okay" her smile could fill the room and i was instantly become happy but the name just filled my ears and i felt happy like i wasnt struggling anymore and i could just let go of everything thats happening and me free just for that moment
"oh yeah sure ill just probably be in the other room im tired anyway please tell them i said hi though" i couldnt even bring a smile to my face just one last look i gave her and the sound of the door closing filled my ears but lastly the tears that was rushing to come out fludded my face I JUST COMPLETELY BROKE DOWN.
everything froze i couldn't breath or make a sound i just cried and cried and cried i couldnt stop everything that i have been feeling these days came crashing down on me finally set free and i couldnt handle it anymore
"AURELIA?"my body froze it was HIM the man i was laughing with days ago was at the door the man who i couldn't help but be afraid to fall inlove with just right outside but i couldnt do one thing but just cry "oh aurelia"my body felt warmth i felt loved i felt that everything inside of me was disappearing but i couldnt even speak all i did was just grab as tight has i can onto sam and just cry until i couldnt anymore.
"its gonna be okay elia okay im here for you just breath deep breath and BREATH" within seconds i was okay i could breath and move and all i did was just hang onto sam until my eyes gave up on me and let me disappear into sleep..
