Alone.

Chapter 6 • Date?

Today is the day of my hangout with Raul!

I decided to wear a white shirt with a lavender skirt that reaches my fingertips. I used to love this outfit in 10th grade. I'm glad it still fits me.

We decided to meet at the front of the mall. I arrive and I have to wait a few minutes for Raul but he arrives and apologizes for being late.

"So where do we go first?" He asks awkwardly.

"Could we go to storbuckz? I really need coffee." It's true, I couldn't sleep all night from excitement.

"Sure."

"Alright!" And we start heading that way. As we're walking, I can tell other girls are looking at him... it made me jealous.

I get my coffee, and we start wandering around, aimlessly... we weren't speaking either. Maybe he wasn't speaking on purpose...

I decided to break the silence.

"So, wanna go to the arcade?"

"Nah."

"Um, then whaddaya wanna do?..." I can feel my anxiety growing.

"Can I be honest with you, Y/N? I don't really wanna be here. I was kind of hoping Lucy would get jealous and talk to me, but she just latched onto...." I wasn't listening anymore. I couldn't listen anymore.

Lucy, this, Lucy, that it always has to be lucy. It can NEVER be Y/N. I'll always be ignored and overlooked.

I turned away. I ran. As I ran, I could feel everyone's stares, but it didn't matter anymore. I felt my eyes stinging. It felt like a river was about to start exploding from my eyes, but I managed to hold them back until I reached my car.

I yanked the door open, sat down, and then slammed it as hard as i could shut. I started bawling, and then the regret came.

I regretted going on this - this 'bait' date, I regretted ever talking to Raul. I hated Lucy for this, even though I knew this time she didn't do anything.

I started the car and drove home with tears still streaming down my cheeks.