JUST FRIENDS... // Pablo Gavi

anger issues

Felina

...I heard one girl entering the restrooms.
She said nicely: "Hi!"
I turned around to her and just spoke out what I thought: "Wow, you're so pretty!"
"Aww, thank you but look in the mirror YOU are gorgeous and oh my god I love your eyes!", she meant.
"Nawww, thank you that's so sweet! What's your name?", I asked the girl.
"My name is Anita and what's your name?"
"What a beautiful name! My name is Felia."
"Nice to meet you!", she said.
I meant: "Your make up is so flawless, wow, may I ask which foundation you use?"
"Thank you, it's the one from Maybelin New York, I'm actually in love with the foundation when I tell you it covers EVERYTHING up I don't overhype it! BUY IT hahaha!", she told me.
"Ohh thank you, I always wanted to buy it but I didn't because it's pretty expensive for a foundation.."
"I can tell you, it's worth the price, I promise!"
"Haha okay, I'm gonna buy it!"
I wanted to walk out of the bathroom because I was ready again and I didn't wanted to let Pablo wait for that long but then Anita said: "Ehm..., do you have one more second?! I would like to talk with you about something."
"Ehh, yeah sure. What is it?", I asked although I actually wanted to go back to Pablo.
"Well I saw you are here with Pablo..", she continued.
"Yes, that's correct. You know him?!", I wondered.
Anita meant: "Yeah... well it's hard to not know him though. Please hear me out.. I don't want anything bad for you you are a wonderful girl, I just want to warn you about something. So, I'm a friend of Pablo. Well actually I was. I really don't want to say that it won't work out with Pablo and you but as I personally was with Pablo, things weren't always easy... He has a lot of fans. Female fans. And these fans are completely obsessed with him and monitor every single female person who is seen with him. They will observe every single movement of yours and make assumptions and rumors. I can only speak from my own experience but the fans hated me and everything I did. They criticised everything about me, literally every. fucking. thing.. Pablo and I weren't even together, we were just friends. This time was horrible for me. I don't mean to scare you, I just want to warn you about his toxic fans. I have to add that Pablo himself always stood by me and told me that I should not listen to those "fans" and to take their hate not seriously. He always said that these fans are just jealous. Pablo is a wonderful person but his fans are just cruel. I'm sorry but I think that he's not the one for you... But still: do your thing and if you really love Pablo the fans have to deal with it and they will sooner or later. Don't be intimidated by my speech here, I just wanted you to be forewarned. I myself was really immature and also did a few stupid things so I kinda understand why his fans hated me so much. Unfortunately Pablo broke off contact at some point, I can understand that though. I really behaved like an ass. So maybe it will be different with you and everyone will love you! I keep my fingers crossed that everything is going well between you two. You guys would be a cute couple not gonna lie haha."
I didn't know what to say because I was too overwhelmed. Anita noticed that I was getting sad and took me in a tight hug. I wanted to cry so bad but I remembered that I have mascara on and Pablo is waiting outside for me so I tried my best to not burst out crying. Anita calmed me down and said that it is just her personal experience and that it could be different with Pablo and me.
We stayed another 5 minutes in the bathroom until we left the bathroom and said goodbye to each other. We decided to stay in touch via social media and meet up again.
Would it really be better to just be friends with Pablo?!

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Pablo

I took advantage of the time in which Felia was at the restrooms and wrote to my best friend Fermín. The day before, I had told him about my date and promised to chat him how the date is going.
Felia was at the restrooms, as I noticed someone walking by, so I turned my head to see who it was.
Oh no
It was Anita...
Why her? Why here? Why now? Whyy?

Anita and I were really good friends and maybe at some point even more than just friends.
But everything didn't always go well between us, I mean what do you expect we were both young.
I just saw her as just a friend but I think she had a huge crush on me. She even broke up with her boyfriend to get together with me. She often tried to kiss me but I refused to.
I have told her several times that I like her as a friend but I can't imagine a relationship with her at all.
But once we were in a club and I was hella drunk. I danced with a few girls including her. I really don't know what I was thinking but I was just completely drunk and probably didn't thought anything at all...
When she found out that she was just one of many girls I danced with that day, she was completely sad and disappointed. I have to say that I behaved like an ass and also regret of being a bit of a fuckboy back then. Since that evening everything has been different and awkward between us. I had the feeling that she doesn't liked me anymore and that she was just using me for fame. At some point we argued about her using me for followers and me using her for my own satisfaction and I broke off the contact between us. Since then we have never talked or seen each other again. And now she's at the same restaurant like me and Felia...
It couldn't be worse...

Anita and I acted like we didn't see each other at all and she walked into the restrooms.
FUCK.
SHE WALKED INTO THE FUCKING RESTROOMS!
Fuck, fuck, fuck! What if Anita tells Felia about what happens back then?!
I panicked and didn't know what to do so I ran out of the restaurant to get some fresh air.
I took a deep breath and tried to calm myself down. But nothing helped there were so many emotions and thoughts in my mind. I had so much anger- anger at Anita but mostly at myself- in me and tried my hardest to not let them out because I know that this would not end good.
I hate my anger issues...
I couldn't help but let my anger out, so I gathered all my strength and boxed and stepped hard on a chair next to me. I hit this chair for about two whole minutes. My hands were hurting and the chair was completely destroyed.
Oops!
But it helped. I wasn't angry anymore.

I walked back into the restaurant as if nothing happens.
After another 5 minutes that I waited at our table Felia finally came back. I immediately noticed that something was off with her.
After she came back from the toilet she was completely cold to me. We both noticed that the mood was no longer quite good and more serious than before and that's why I quickly paid and we left the restaurant.

I brought her to her house and drove home.

I made myself ready to go to bed and tried to sleep but I couldn't. I had so many thoughts in my head.
I thought about this strange date and whether Anita could have anything to do with it. But mostly I thought about Felia. About my gorgeous Felia who I have may lost now...

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End of chapter 11 🥹!

Hey guys,
Sorry for the sudden end of this chapter, I kinda lost motivation :(.
One more little info: I changed the description of the book a bit, I hope
you like it.
Love y'all!

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