Confessions

My Little World

Itago mo nalang ako sa pangalang Mia and bisaya kong dako but I'll try my best to write in tagalog or English so some people will read this also.

So hi I'm Mia and this is My little world story. Since I was a kid di ko kinalakihan ang pagiging sweet sa kahit ano o sino. My family express they're love through doing something that im sure they will appreciate it in short acts of services then that's it. We don't really say it verbally but we love each other and through that I sometimes don't how to show my feelings- I am what they called no emotion or sometimes they call me the girl with no expression.

Now all of this is not about my family I mean I don't blame them because they didn't teach us how to show more love to one another, I might thank them for not teaching us because for me its not a hassel, they can't read you that's fine for me, they don't know if you are afaird or sad, mostly they can't see your weakness through your empty eyes and that's a good advantage of all of it.  

You see I wrote this little note of mine to just express what I keep inside- They might don't know what I've been throught or what I sacrifes because I literary don't show it to them. I have this little world that me and myself is in that world and no one else- You know what I mean? And that little world of mine has so many things going on. I just built a barrier so no one can get inside because if they get in they see my weakness, what I am afraid for or what makes me happy.

AT ayukong mangyari yun- Bakit? Kasi di nila kakayanin well of course some people will come and say "Kaya man lagi nako, oa ra jud kayka" Will maybe in the meantime because the longer you'll stay and dig more about me the more it getting darker inside that little world of mine.

I didn't built this little world of mine it just built itself I only built a barrier so no one can come in.

The more you get older and know how cruel the reality world and people are, that little world will get darker and darker- because I don't know don't want to hurt myself to know how life is cruel. 

Di nila kayang mag tagal sa little world ko na yun dahil ako mismo di ko kinakaya ang nasa loob that's why I tried in the middle of the night and try to cry it silently so they won't wake up or worst mapag kakamalang multong umiiyak. 

You cried all night then you go back to your little world again and that's how my life is going on right now- If all people wanted to bring you down just ignore them and just please try to ignore them. If you can't take it, just cry it out loud if that's not it- Then that's the sign that you tell them what you feel.

Well it may not easy to do it, just go with the flow it will come out naturally that you will never know that you already show it or say it.  

Our feelings are also cruel- So you should think twice how you act and how you feel. Also a reminder not all people tough as you are so don't try to hurt them with your words. Thank you for reading my note.

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