Darkest Light - COMPLETE (bxb story tagalog/english)

Chapter 19

"Miguel? Where are you?" I look around my room. Nawawala si Miguel. Bakit kaya? Umupo ako sa maputik na damuhan sa labas at tumitig lang sa napulot kong basag na salamin. Nagkasugat-sugat na yung mga daliri ko. Tumutulo na yung dugo sa damo pero kahit ganun, hindi ko pa din maramdaman. Ang liwanag. Bakit ganun? Why is it so bright when all I can feel is darkness?

"A-Alex.." may narinig akong pamilyar na boses.. but it was very hesitant and quiet. Pag lingon ko..

"Miguel.." His eyes were wide.. His mouth was open with shock.. and he was crying.. Hindi sya ang Miguel na kasakasama ko.. he..

Bat sya lumalapit?!

"No!!!" I drop the broken glass and covered my ears. I curled my body as tight as I can and I felt my body begged for oxygen as I wheeze for air.

"Sir, please stop!"

"Sir Miguel! Wag! Takot sya.. Natatakot sya pag may lumalapit. Hindi sya nagpapahawak kahit kanino. Nagwawala sya."

"Alex.. Alex.. Oh God, I'm so sorry.. Alexander, look at me. Alex, please!"

I slowly lift my head and eyed this unusual Miguel.. I don't like him. He tried to go near me.. he'll touch me. He'll just hurt me like everyone does. The old doctor always hurts me. He'll always stab me with injections. It hurts. He'll always tie me up when I try to get away so he can inject me. I hate him. The old nurse will hurt me too. She also force food under my throat. It hurts. I hate her too. She and the doctor hates me too.

Shiela.. she was here. She was stopping Miguel to come forward. Old nurse was also there.

"No, Alex.. let go of that, honey.. let that go!" The old nurse didn't reach out her hand but she was still stopping Miguel. I just hold onto the broken glass on my hand.

"Alex!! No!!!!" What did I do? I just use the sharp end to draw on my arm and wrist. Hmm? Red. Red is a good color. More.. deeper.

"Stop!! Stop it!!" Someone slapped my hand and the glass flew off. I look up and saw Miguel. He is mad. He is crying..

"What did I do?" I said and I look down at the flowing blood on my wounded arm.

"I won't touch you. I promise." Promise? I believe in Miguel.. but he did said he won't ever leave me.. yet he left..

He promised.. but he left.

"Promises are meant to be broken." I said and grin at him. He looked so hurt.. so much in pain.. he drop on his knees in front of me and he sobbed with a hand thread in his hair. There he cried and cried.

"C'mon, Alex. Let's fix your arm shall we?" I eyed the old doctor and the two guy nurses with him. They'll touch me again!

"No!!!" I run away but they caught me. I screamed and screamed but the just drag me away.

"No!!! No!!!! No!!!! Aahhh!!!! Don't touch me!! Don't touch me please!!!! Stop!!!!"

Miguel! Miguel.. save me..

I reach out for him and when he reach back.. I was more willing of his touch than them. Than the doctor.. than rhe nurse!!

"Miguel!!!!" I screamed out but before he could reach me, I black out.

When I woke up I was on the bed again. My arm was patched up with bandages. My fingers were all clean and filled with band-aids. I took them off one-by-one. I hate them. I don't like it. I got off the bed and went off to the door. Before I could go out the door open on its own. Miguel was there. He had big and wide puff eyes, disarray hair and wrinkled shirt. Is this really Miguel? When he step closer, I jumped and run towards the closet. I got in and curled in a ball on the corner inside.

"Alex.. Please don't be scared. It's me.. Miguel.." I look up and he was 3 feet away from the cabinet.

"Ako to, Alex.."

"Once upon a time.. may isang lalaki.. mahal na mahal nya raw ako.. mahal na mahal na mahal.." Sabi ko and Miguel's eyes watered.. hangang sa hinayaan nya ng mahulog ang mga luhang yun..

"Oo.. ako yun, Alex.. ako yun.. si Miguel.. mahal na mahal.. na mahal kita.." his voice broke.. bakit??

"Miguel?"

"That's right.. that's me.. Miguel.."

"Talaga, Miguel? Wag mo kong hahawakan ha. Bili dito ka sa loob. Parati ka namang tumatabi sakin diba?" I smiled at him pero parang sya.. hindi nya kayang ngumiti sa akin. Nagbago na si Miguel... why?

He looked like he knows what I was saying pero nagsalita pa din si Shiela.. nandyan pala sya?

"Ang sabi ng doktor parati daw po syang nagsasalitang magisa. May kausap.. Miguel po ang pangalan Sir.."

Miguel took in a shaky breath. Nagpunas sya ng luha pero tumulo pa din yung luha nya. Binaliwala nya yun and he carefully get in the cabinet with me. Hindi nya ako hinawakan. Umiwas sya. Humarap lang sya sakin at ginaya yung posisyon ko.

"Shiela iwanan mo muna kami. Salamat."

"Sige po.." Umalis na sya pero di ko napansin. Naka tingin lang ako sa marumi kong paa.

"Kita mo?" Sabi ko. He look down and when he saw my feet, his breath caught in his throat.

"What happened?" Was he referring to my missing toenails? Hmm?

"What happened with us?"

I look up at him and he has his head down on his hand as he silently cry.. his eyes were closed and he was breathing far to deeply..

"Why are you crying?" He laughed humorlessly. He open his puffy eyes and look at my dead eyes.

"Why am I crying? Why? Kasi Alex.. hindi kita naligtas.. pinangako ko sayo.. Hindi kita sasaktan.. hindi kita iiwan.. pero.. bakit? Ano bang ginawa kong mali? Ano ba? Hindi ba ako pwedeng humingi ng tawad? I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry.." umiiyak lang sya.. iyak sya ng iyak.. bakit?

"Paano pag namatay ako? Ganyan din ba iyak mo Miguel?" He shot his eyes at me and he quickly held my arms and I gasp. I wanted to scream but I just panted instead. I can't breathe!!! No!!!

"Miguel don't touch me. Don't touch me! Don't touch me! No! No!"

"Hindi! Hinding hindi na ako bibitaw Alex!" He hugged me and I panicked. I hit him on his arms, his back, his face and head. I kicked him on his stomach, his leg and hips but he just winced and didn't let go. I wheeze and I stopped slowly when I feel warmth.. that familiar warmth..

"No.. No..."

"Alex.. please.."

"Sorry.. I'm sorry!!! Miguel.. Miguel.. Sorry na..." I sobbed on his chest and all I felt is warmth..

"Alex.. It'll be fine.. I'll fix this.. It'll all be fine.."