YOUR RAINBOW(Heeseung FF)

CHAPTER 7

Stage 7: COMMITMENT

"Just leave me alone. You are better off with someone else" he said.

"No. You think I'd ever leave you like this. I'd rather die"

"I'm already dying. Do you think I'd wish the same for you? Think practically, love. You will only get hurt if you keep holding onto me. Just live your life happily. Don't ruin it by keeping me" he said while holding my shoulders.

"....Would you leave me if I was in the same situation as yours?" I said and looked into his eyes. His gaze softened and I could feel tears falling from my eyes. I didn't want to cry in front of him at that moment so just walked away. He didn't come after me. He didn't tell my name. He just.... stood there.

I wasn't expecting an answer for that but he could have atleast done something. Feeling hurt, I went home. His silence. It's all I can think about. "Does he not want a future with me?"

"I don't have a future, love" I heard his voice behind me.

"Why did you come hear?" I said firmly.

He came closer to me and cupped my face. He then lift my chin and said, "A future? There were much more plans I thought but I won't be there..... I will be gone and I don't want you all alone-"

"If you don't want me to be all alone then stay with me"

He didn't respond.

"For the time left" I added.

"I-I don't understand. What is gonna happen to us? Is it the end? The end to everything?" I say and start crying. He took me out into his arms and kissed my forehead. "I don't ever want to leave you. Even if I die, I'm going to haunt you for life. This is my answer to the question you asked earlier. I will haunt you even if you are with other-"

"It's only you and me, Heeseung. There will be no others in my life" I said and kissed his lips.

"Can we live together? Just us? I want to live these 3 months with you" he said.

"We will, idiot" I said and smiled at him.

"Wait.. Does your parents know about this? That you have mesothelioma?" I asked him.

"No, I have no plans to tell them about this. Only you and few of my friends know about this."

"Then, what about your treatment?"

"There is no treatment for this. No medication. It's not a curable disease. No person has survived this."

      
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We moved in to his place. His parents went on business trip and won't be here for 6 months. So I moved in with him.

He would give me hickeys and tell me that he was marking me as his. He became very clingy and would never leave me alone. Even for a minute. We were together 24/7. We made love every night. He asked me if I could ever forget him. How can I forget someone who gave a lot to remember?

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I came back from the shower only wearing a robe and saw him opening the door. "Heeseung!! You could have knocked"

"Why ?"

"Well, I could have been changing by the time you came in"

"You are not. .... And it's not like I've never seen anything" he said with grin.

I went closer to him and whispered in his ear, "I came closer to you and I hope you get the hint"

Without any hesitation, he kissed my lips aggressively and started removing his jacked and pulled my robe off. His fingers ran through my hair and mine were on his shoulders.