Snippets ~Ishqbaaz

Shot 1.1

Hey there! If you find this just know this is written by a terrible writer who is a silent reader for a very long time. Just typed out something that was sitting in my mind for a very long time 😁
Forgive me for the mistakes!

Plot - 3 months separation
Scene- Days after Annika left OM

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15 days..! 15 freaking days since she left that house..That family ! Him !
Annika crossed the date on her calendar with a red marker. A sigh left her mouth and it felt painful.Everything felt painful. She was tired, tired of surrendering to his mother, tired of losing her loved ones, tired of the constant battle between her heart and mind. She looked over to the moon, her solace and favourite part of otherwise scary darkness with hollow eyes. It was bright and beautiful just the way she imagined her life would be when she was just an 8 year old. If only that child knew.. That nothing much changed in her life than just knowing how love feels. That's it.

Annika sighed again and moved over to her worn out recliner and rested there hoping to get some sleep but alas sleep was a luxury which she couldn't get nowadays. The daylights were easy with working hard in a small organisation she bagged due to her exceptional ability of management. She volunteered in every other work to tire herself out to catch some sleep as soon she hit the bed. If only it happened like that although every other night her eyes begs her to sleep but mind kept her awake with thoughts and questions running around. Trying and trying to sleep she used to lightly slip into a slumber only to jolt up again with nightmares.

Annika rubbed her face and moved towards the kitchen to grab some masala chai for some relief. As she kept the water to boil along with tea leaves, her mind wandered again towards all the thoughts. She prepared her tea and grabbed the cup and settled on the recliner again. She was tired and ready at the same time to finish all the questions haunting her. She took a sip and she let her thoughts run back to the day she left the house. Or was it really like that? She was pushed out. She was pushed out of the house by him. Him. Why did he do that? Her heart gave her only one answer that he was hurt and angry by her actions. She failed to put into words how terrible she felt at the time he harshly grabbed her hand and made his way to throw her out of their house. Correction his house. On the way she didn't fail to notice his mother's beaming face.

For once Annika silenced her heart and thought about every happening with her mind. Never in her life did she disrespect Pinky Singh Oberoi. But she always used to throw daggers of words towards her. Was it so easy to condemn other person with so much of hating words?Did pinky aunty deserved her respect after shaming her entire existence with poisonous words just because she was an orphan? No. No was the answer Annika had within herself. No matter if Mrs. Pinky Oberoi wanted her as Bahu or not she never ever had a right to call her names.

Annika took another sip and thought about what happened few days ago. God ! It was painful. Leaving him was painful. For someone who was alone in every aspect of life, Shivaay became a solace for her tired self and a partner to face her struggles. Yet again the mind took the charge and popped a question which was pressing her everyday. Did he not believe her? Was it so easy for him to push her out? Did he really forget everything about her? Did he think she could do something like that ? If it was Rudra or Dadi or Om or his badi ma or anyone in his family did the same thing, would he have thrown them out too?
Deep down she knew answers for all the questions.

Annika looked at her palm the one she pressed her nails into when she was acting in front of him and tears rolled down her eyes. She felt so bad and alone. She let all the answers flow out of her system.For starters she was never included in his family for him to consider her highly and trust her completely. It took him just 10 mins and some words about his brother to snap and form an opinion on her character so strongly that throwing her out of the house was all he could think of. A hallow laugh left Annika's mouth thinking of how stupid she was. That day she strongly believed that he won't believe on her acting. That he will see right through her facade but 10 minutes was enough. Annika shook her head and took another sip. Life with him was so beautiful no doubt but the fact remained that both of their worlds never ever went together.

Slowly realisation started to dawn upon her. Before marriage she was the girl who believed in the present and strived day and night to build future alongside fighting with demons of past. Self respect ! that was her only principle. But after marriage she let everyone in that house walk over her. She kept her principle aside for them. Was it worth it? Did her longing for love turn her weak? She agreed to live with a person who blackmailed her and married her forcefully. She accepted to stay with him even though Shivaay used to deny their marriage on her face. She never left that place only because Dadi said that there was never a divorce in their family. If only she walked out that day.

Sacrifice! Annika felt like a fool. Like a fool? Nah She is a fool. The love she felt for shivaay was all true. But it hurt her so much that it only took him just 5 min to judge her entirely on words after sharing absolutely beautiful moments together. Annika wiped her tears and stood up facing the moon again. No in a way this whole incident has helped her to find herself again. And she isn't going to let it slip. If only she stood up on the day his mother started to downgrade her and walked out of that house she would have never faced all those. Yes she still can do anything for Shivaay. Such is love. It is beautiful but complicated.

Never in these 14 days did she come face to face across him. But thanks to his brothers she was updated with his life. They called her to tell her how their brother was behaving and asked her to come back to their brother so that he would be happy again. There was never a how are you doing bhabhi. A small bitter smile came on her lips. They are his family. Why would they ask about her life.

That day Annika slept whole night without any questions without any thoughts because she was now capable of answering them. She was on her way to build herself again. This time nobody will walk over her. Nobody will say anything to her. She made a decision which will start her new life and this time she will try and try to never let herself down. A new her! A new Annika Sirf Annika.. With that she closed her eyes and succumbed to sleep.

Next day Shivaay received a message on his phone sent by Khanna

"Ms. Annika's house has a sign saying 'house for sale' and her phone location is heading towards the railway station."

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Thanks for reading this terrible piece 😁 Apologies for the mistakes.