Untitled Love: No way to forget you

My Garden, Your Garden

No, I'm not angry at the scorn of my love for you, I'm not angry at you my dear wise-eyed darling, it's not worth it, I'm angry at me for having immortalized you in my mind and having silently given you a part of my heart that I can say with certainty I will never get back since you don't know it, but you have a piece of my heart, I'm angry because my soul is rotting while yours is flourishing thanks to another.

My garden is empty, there's no gardener, the lilacs are dying, the calla lilies are dry, the roses have lost their colour, but your garden has a gardener, your sunflowers shine like a star, what a pity, for you? No, what a pity for me that my garden has been destroyed and poorly cared for, evidently by myself, a garden needs a gardener, I am alone and in solitude I find myself and may my dark forest someday be divine as well as how apollonian you are, those words I say to God and our lord who reigns in paradise gives me what I want through challenges and adversities, but, I have not been able to forget you, no matter how much time passes every day you appear in my mind, I don't know which is worse, the absence of you in my life or the absence of you and the knowledge that you are with him and that you could very well talk to me, like before, as friends.there's not much to say about how dark my days, my weeks, my months are. To talk about how much I miss your turquoise brown eyes, your fine lips, your soft hair, how happy you made me with just a smile or a laugh, how empathetic you are, maybe you are different now but of course in my mind you are the perfect woman, if perfection exists, her name is Sofia Ivania. It's been nine years in love with you my dear, of a hidden love, how can I not love you if you gave me happiness for the first time in my life? growing up under two cloaks disguised as parents, screams, fights and violence, you taught me how beautiful love can be, and at the same time how cruel it can be. there is a black rose? yes there is, that rose was me, but you Sofia filled me with bright, majestic, stately and sublime colours, and without even knowing it you showed me what happiness was, and without you it really isn't the same anymore.There is no way I can forget you my dear, you gave me something that no one will be able to give me back, absolute happiness, with you by my side everything was like a garden full of sunflowers, white lilies, red and white copihues, royal plants, animals sometimes appeared to see that beautiful garden, that illuminated even at night, that the rain did not dare to touch, that the strong winds slowed down not to damage that garden. It is impossible to forget you...I have tried, I can't Sofia Ivania.