Melting | Soukoku

Losing control

C
I've been hinting to Dazai all day. I don't know why but lately I just need him, need his touch, need his body on mine. I want to be intimate with him. I know he can be. I just don't know how to get him to show me that.

I see Dazai sitting on the couch, listening to music, with his arms holding his head from behind. I suddenly had an idea. I sit down on his lap and look away. "Hello chibi!" I look up and move forward. "Chibi? What are you doing?" I can't help but start grinding on him. I need him so bad. "Chuuya..." He grabs my hips stops me from moving. "Chuuya. Don't..." I glare at him a little bit. "DAMN IT BAKAZAI!" He looks at me confused. I'm still sitting on him and I look into his eyes. I hate being so desperate but I can't help but give in. "Please...! I've never felt this way in my life. Help me Dazai. I've been trying to tell you all day. Please...I need it. I need it so bad! Just fuck me please!" His cheeks are a little bit pink and his chest is rising up and down slowly but heavily. He takes a deep breath and then sighs. "Chuuya...Believe me I want to, but if I do this..I won't be able to hold back. It will hurt." I kiss him on the lips. "When has pain ever stopped me?" Suddenly he kisses me roughly. It's like something snapped inside him. He kisses down my neck and it feels so nice. We've made out before but we've never done anything like this. "Chuuyaaaa~" Dazai is teasing me but I can't help it. It feels so good. "We've hardly even started~" Why is my neck so sensitive?! Every place he touches makes my skin feel like it's sparking. My chest rises up and down at a slow pace and I my eyes feel...droopy..or half open. "Chibiii...you okay if I move on?" I nod but still didn't expect it when Dazai's long and slender fingers entered me. His fingers are so deep! He starts moving them around and everything feels like sparks. Holy shit. fuck this feels so good. I want more. I need more. "D-dazai!" I try to get my words out but all I could get out was a pathetic cry. I can hardly form words. "Yes chibi?" I feel another finger enter and everything feels so good. I desperately try to get my words out now. "M-More..! Please—" His fingers start moving way faster and at a harder tempo. I hold back a scream. "You know you sure are impatient chuuyaaaa~" All I can do is let out a pathetic moan in response. I plead with him for more and more. He starts sucking on my neck and collarbone. "O-Oi! Y-you know b-better than to leave m-marks— Ah! Fuck...please.." I feel so pathetic but needy at the same time. He has complete control over me. I couldn't dominate him even if I tried. Fuck he's so hot. I feel him start to lightly stroke me up and down. It's so sensitive but he's only barely holding it. He's tempting me with it. It throbs so much that it hurts. "Wow Chuuya you sure are sensitive hm? You want help with that? I'd be glad to do so~" I nod quickly and let out heavy breaths. I can still feel his fingers moving inside of me. This is all so...heavenly. "Please...D-Dazai! Please..please..I'll do anything p-please. It h-hurts. H-help me D-Dazai!" He smiles at me and starts stroking a little bit faster. I feel my voice start to come out even more. I can feel every single movement his fingers and hand make. It's a little overwhelming but in a good way. "You're so beautiful chuuya~." My face must be hotter than the damn sun right now. "Y-you really m-mean it?" He smiles at me and thrusts his fingers in deeper and I practically yell a moan. "How can I not mean it? You are so beautiful. I could kiss you and fuck you for years. I love you." I feel so good right now. I pull him down into a kiss. It's long and sweet kiss. Then it turns into a hungry lust-filled kiss. It feels like I was meant to be here. Though, we're now "enemies" technically, that's never stopped us from loving. "Chuuya~? Are you ready for the next step?" I blush a bit. I nod and he unbuckles his belt. I see his length and my mouth waters. It's so...long. He lines up with me. "Take a deep breath chibi." I suck a breath in as Dazai cruelly slams into me. I let out a cry of a pain. Fuck that hurt. "Be g-gentle! O-ow." He smiles a bit "I told you it would hurt. Just breathe Chuuya. I promise it'll get better and you'll start feeling amazing soon." My breath is so heavy and I can see my chest rising up and down. "I-idiot! How much experience do you have with this?!" He smiles and chuckles. "I guess you're feeling great then." He starts moving at a fast pace that I wasn't ready for. I've never felt...anything like this. Holy shit. Is this right? We've been dating in secret for awhile now...but even...doing stuff like...this with him? Am I pushing it too far? I love him and love this current moment though. I don't care enough. Everything feels so good. My entire body is moving with every thrust Dazai makes. "Oh chibi you're so pretty but naughty.." I don't know why but I like that he said that. "Aw chibi...My chibi." He somehow thrusts faster and I hear noises coming out of me and I hide my face with my hand. Dazai clearly doesn't like this and harshly turns my face back to him. he takes one of his hands and manages to hold both of my wrists above my head. "Chuuya. Don't cover your beautiful face. I love it. I'm the only one who gets to see you like this." I blush even more than I already am. "S-sorry. I-it's j-just e-embarrassing...Ah fuck." I feel like I'm floating right now. It all just feels so good! Fuck. Why does it feel so god damn good? My phone starts randomly vibrating meaning someone's calling me. Dazai grabs it and places it on my lower stomach just barely above my aching dick. He smiles and then hands it to me. "Answer it." My eyes widen in shock a bit. He doesn't stop pushing in and out though. "D-Dazai...y-you're still—" He pushes in harshly and I moan loudly. "I know. It's a test chibi...I want to see how much of a good boy you can be. Keep your composure on the phone." The phone rings again and I hesitate but pick it up. I feel Dazai purposely going rough on me. I hear the voice on the other line. "Hello Chuuya. I'm reminding you that we have a meeting tomorrow. Bring Dazai with you will you?" I manage to catch my breath as much as I can. "Oh. W-Why?" I hear a small chuckle through the phone. "I think you could work as a duo once more. Seems that you two have been getting along better. Is he with you right now?" As Dazai continues to slam into me I let out the slightest noise and go to cover my mouth but Dazai's hand is still pinning one of my wrists down. "U-Um. Stupid bakazai? Nah he's p-probably busy finding w-ways to k-kill himself...or p-plotting something!" I don't know why but suddenly everything is feeling so intense...I zone out for a bit then realize I'm still on the phone. "Mm...Really? I could've sworn he'd be with you. Y'know to go over the meeting topics with you beforehand?" I roll my eyes with the perfect excuse. "Well that moron...D-Dazai...he's always late! He never does his work anyway." I start feeling something in my stomach...other than Dazai...as if something were about to pop. My legs were shaking and it felt like something was going to come out of me. "Well. When and if he ever does arrive, be sure to tell him." My entire body is rocking with Dazai's movements and I can hardly contain any noises. Some slip out and it makes my heart race. "Are you alright? You sound...in pain..?" Fuck he noticed. "Y-yeah I'm fine I'm just f-feeling a bit...unwell. It'll b-be fine." Fuck why does everything feel so intense and so fucking good?! While I'm zoning out, Dazai pushes as hard as he can and I let out a loud moan. "Fuck. Sorry I just s-stubbed my toe!"   I hear a laugh over the line. "You seem to be having a rough time. I'll let you go. Be better for our meeting tomorrow." I hear the phone beep and the call ends. Immediately Dazai rams into me repeatedly and all I can do is scream his name. "D-Dazai! F-Fuck I feel...w-weird! S-ssso g-good but it's d-different!" All I get is a small laugh. "Chibi. You're so close, aren't you? You're gonna cum.~" Right. I'm so inexperienced with all of this. Yet, somehow Dazai is experienced. "Go on chibi...cum for me. My naughty little Chuuya..cum for me." I can barely think straight. I can feel cold tears running down my face. "D-Dazai! K-kiss me...p-please." He smiles. "Beg for it. Beg for it my chibi." I feel his movements slow down and I try to grab at him to keep him going but he has both of my wrists pin down. I struggled against him. "Fuck! Oh my god Dazai. Please...D-Dazai! Fuck just..please....please please please..!" He gets so close to my face without being close enough. I try stretching my neck to kiss him but I'm just out of reach. I desperately try again and finally Dazai gives in and kisses me. It feels so fucking hot. He lets go for a moment though. "You've done so good my naughty little chibi." I struggle to form any words. "Yeah but I n-need more! Ha-ah.." We kiss again and I can hardly breathe. He starts stroking me while thrusting into me still. It's all too much. I need to cum. I need to finally feel satisfied. "O-Osamu! P-please...I need to c-cum! Oh please...please..." He freezes for a second but continues everything just fine. "Say it again." I get confused for a second. "My name. Say it again." I swallow hard. "O-Osamu..." I feel his dick twitch inside me. "Fuck Chuuya. You're so cute. I love you so much." I always love when Dazai says he loves me because I know he doesn't just go around saying that. He says it to those he truly means it to. "I l-love you too d-Dazai.." He slaps one of my ass cheeks. I let out a short moan. "No. It's Osamu from now on. Only call me Dazai around others. Or should I teach you to use my name properly~?" He slaps the other cheek this time and I have the same response. Fuck he's so hot. I just want him to fuck me until I can't walk. "Well? Are you going to answer me or just lay there and let me decide for you chibi? It would be fitting for you...after all you deserve prince treatment don't you? Of course there are lessons to be learned though." He repeatedly slaps me on the ass. "F-Fuck! I don't care! J-just fuck me until I can't walk! Please...Osamu...fuck me until I can't e-even remember the n-name D-Dazai!" He smiles devilishly and uses all of his force to pound into me. I arch my back and let out a lewd moan. Fuck. He looks so calm during all of this, I don't understand how. I probably look like a wreck. My legs are shaking so hard. "I can feel how close you are Chuuya. Your poor little legs are shaking so much." I feel him pull me close and put my legs on his shoulders. I feel him leaving marks on up my legs but I just don't care. It feels so nice. "Your beautiful pale skin is so perfect...it needs to be ruined by me." I feel so incredibly close that it hurts. I try to relieve my aching dick but this bastard still has my wrist above my head. He bites down hard on my leg and I squirm. I've never felt like this. It feels so good. Too good. "Just hold it a little longer chibi." Is that even possible? There's no way. "I-idiot! I c-can't! There's n-no w—" I get a harsh slap across my ass. "What's my name?" My eyes widen. I've never heard him like this before. He sounds so serious. It makes my heart skip. "I-I'm sorry. O-Osamu!" He slaps my ass harder. "What's my name Chuuya~?" I feel pathetic but so good right now. "Osamu! I-it's Osamu! Fuck...oh please..let me cum! I'm desperate...please! Osamu...!" I look directly in his eyes. "Please Osamuuu...pleaseee..." I hear his breath for a moment. He smiles and starts marking down my legs, pounding in me, and stroking me. "Come on Chuuya. Cum for me. Cum for...?" Fuck. It feels like my insides are bubbling. "Fuck! I-I'm cumming! Osamu!! A-Ah~!" Suddenly all the pressure is released. He's still going though. "What~? You'd thought I just stop because my chibi finished? Aw chibi. We still could go for more rounds~. Who says the fun has to end?" He chuckles and for a moment, I think I fell in love with him all over again. "O-Osamu we h-have things to do!" He pouts a bit. "So you really want to leave me like this?" I turn away a bit and shake my head. "N-No but h-how am I s-supposed to help?" He raises an eyebrow and smiles. He kisses my lips lightly. "Such an innocent chibi." He kisses me again. I let out a slight smile. "You can either suck or you can ride. If you're really in the mood though you can do both~" Dazai finally lets go of my wrists. I see him sit on his legs. I crawl over to him and take his length into my mouth. He forces my head down and I gag slightly. I look up at him and continue. He places his hand under my chin. "Fuck. You're so fucking cute. I love you Chuuya. Everything about you. Your pale beautiful skin. Your beautiful glowing eyes. Your perfect height. Your lovely ginger hair.  Your small, thin, and delicate fingers. The way you look perfect in everything. My chibi. My Chuuya, you're so perfect. Such a good boy for me." My eyes tear up and I realize I'm...hard. Again. From a few compliments. I make a split second decision and climb onto Dazai's lap. He seems shocked by this for a second but then helps me. He slams me down and easily slides into me. I pull him into a kiss and he thrusts up into me. "Don't forget who has control here." I swallow hard knowing he's completely right. I always submit under him. "O-Osamu..." He repeatedly thrusts up making me bounce on him. Fuck. Everything is so sore but it feels so good. It doesn't take long for Dazai to cum inside me, a feeling I didn't know could feel so good. The simple feeling of it makes me cum again. I'm so exhausted. I sit there for a second. "You okay Chuuya? Did I go too rough?" I kiss him and smile. "I'm perfectly fine, just tired. I loved it. It felt so good. I couldn't have asked for anything better." I see him smile and it makes my heart feel like it's fluttering like a butterfly. I smile and kiss him lightly. "Now I love this moment but I do need to pull out." I hear him chuckle and I hide my face in embarrassment. I let him pick me up and pull out. We cuddle with each other until we fall asleep with each other.