Melting | Soukoku

Dogs

(D)
"Is it really already time to go back to work Atsushi??" He nods and I sigh. "Fine let me get dressed and I'll walk with you. I'm assuming Kunikida sent you here." He sighs and nods. "Of course he did. He doesn't want us ruining his schedule." I nod and head to get dressed for work.

After I finished getting ready I meet with Atsushi as we both begin walking to the agency. We're walking down our normal path. I just want to be home though. I have a bad feeling something bad is going to happen. I keep walking with Atsushi before I look in front of us, a good bit away, is Mori...not only Mori but he's holding about four dogs on leashes. No. He turns towards me and smiles. No. He "accidentally" drops the leashes. I don't wait another moment and I start running the other direction. No. This can't be happening again. No. I don't want to relive it. I run even though I hear Atsushi yelling from behind me. It'll be my fault if he gets hurt, but my fear is outweighing my emotions. I keep running until I'm all the way back home. I shut the door loudly and let out a loud sob, louder than I meant it to be. Fuck I'm letting them show.

(C)
I hear a loud slam and I go to investigate and I see Osamu sitting on the floor crying and violently shaking. I quickly run to him. "Woah Osamu what the hell happened?" He frantically looks around and keeps pulling on his hair. I take his hands off his head very gently and hold them in my own. "Osamu. Take a breath, okay? Can you tell me what happened?" He finally takes a breath. "It...it was...m-m-m-Mori. H-he was t-there and.." I try to follow his story but he's talking very fast and shakily. "Hey, breathe Osamu." He nods and takes a small breath. "H-he had dogs and he l-let them g-go. H-he wanted t-to do it again. H-he did t-this once, t-they attacked m-me and t-there was b-blood..." he continues mumbling but I already understand. I remember this. When he got attacked by those awful dogs. He doesn't hate dogs, but god do they scare him. "May I hug you, Osamu?" He shakily nods. I quickly wrap him in a hug. I feel his tears completely stain my shirt. I don't care. He needs me right now. I'm the only one who could possibly begin to understand him. I gently run my fingers through his hair as he continues to shake. He's trying his best to hold back his quiet sobs. "Osamu, just let it out. It's okay. I'm here." His grip tightens around me and starts crying more than I've ever seen before. Seeing him like this makes a tear roll down my own cheek. I gently grab his face. "Hey...look at me." He slowly looks up and his pained expression breaks my heart. "It's okay, I'm here Osamu. I love you." I gently kiss him and he starts to calm down. "C-chibi...more k-kisses." I laugh a bit. "Okay." I gently kiss his forehead, then his cheek, then his nose, and then lightly kiss his lips. His shaking has calmed down a lot. I kiss him again but this time he doesn't let go. He catches me off guard by pulling me closer. I let him have most of the control. He kisses me deeper and I raise my eyebrows in surprise. He doesn't stop though. He continues deepening the kiss. I let out a faint noise and he lets go. I finally catch my breath for a moment. Only for him to continue again kissing me. He kisses rougher now and I fall back into my elbows, but he still continues to kiss me. His mood flips always confuse me. At this point I'm on the floor and he's holding me by the hips, leaning over me, and kissing me. I gently pat him on the chest and he lets go. I pant semi-heavily. "Sorry Chuu, kissing you just makes me feel so much better." I smile although I'm trying to still catch my breath. "Why stop now then?" He smiles. "I love you." He starts leaning in. "I love you too." He kisses me gently and passionately. He gently intertwines our hands together. He gently kisses my neck and collarbone, leaving light marks. I turn my face slightly so he can mark more. He takes the opportunity and he unbuttons the first button of my shirt so he can kiss even further. I just let small short breaths out. Another button is undone and his kisses begin to be become rougher as he uses his teeth to pull at the skin and kiss it to soothe the pain. He gets one last bite on my skin then we just breathe together for a moment. He pulls me into his lap and hugs me. "Thank you, Chuuya. I really mean it. I love you." I tear up a bit. "I love you too Osamu. A lot." He kisses me gently and picks me up. He sets me down onto the couch and sighs. "I'm not going to work today. I need today off." I nod but bite my lips as I'm thinking. "I still have to go into work later Osamu." He frowns for a second. "Maybe I could come with you." I tilt my head. "But...what if you see him again, will you be alright?" He pauses for a second. Then finally shakes his head. Shit. I really don't want to leave him alone here. I hear a knock on the door. Osamu doesn't answer it. "Want me to get it?" He nods. I walk over and slightly peek at who it is. It's Atsushi. I open the door enough for him to see me. "Hey Chuuya, is Dazai here?" I look at him and nod. "He is, but I'm afraid he's not coming to work today. He needs today off." I see him put a sad expression on. "Is he...okay? He ran away from me. I've never seen him like that. It took me awhile to come here because I had to grab all the loose dogs. Luckily no one was hurt." I nod and see Osamu shake slightly. "Yeah. Good job Atsushi. He's doing okay for now but he just needs a moment." He slightly bites his lip, pondering something. "M-may I see him?" I question it. I turn to him for a moment. "Hey love, can Atsushi come in? He wants to talk with you for a moment." I see him take a couple of deep breaths. "Yeah let him in." I put a hand on his chest. "Are you sure Osamu? You can say no if you need to." He nods and walks over to the door. "Hey Atsushi. Would you like to come in?" He nervously laughs. "If you'd allow me to." Osamu welcomes him into our home and sits down on the couch with him. I make sure to stay near him. "I'm sorry. I just wanted to make sure you're actually okay. I'll let the agency know you're not coming today." He nods and takes a breath. "Atsushi. I want you to know that being from the port mafia isn't easy. They're not normal and will go to drastic measures to punish their members. Atsushi, never join the port mafia, never give them sympathy, they will take advantage of it." He nods but looks confused. "Why are you telling me this? The only connections I have to the port mafia are Aku and...well Chuuya." I look to the side. It never really was my choice to join. Osamu looks to me and tilts his head to Atsushi. He wants me to tell him. I sit down next to Osamu and take his hand in mine. "Atsushi he's telling you this because it's why he ran. He grew up in the port mafia as you know. Once when we were younger the boss had let mafia dogs attack Osamu. He bled so much he could barely walk. I found him later and helped him bandage himself. He got reminded of that today. He had to take a moment to breathe." I see tears running down Atsushi's face. "A-Atsushi..." he laughs slightly. "No...no I'm fine! T-that's just so horrible...I'm so sorry." Osamu simply nods. He nervously fidgets with his hands. "W-well...in the meantime I have a different question.." I tilt my head in curiosity. "U-uhm..how d-do you guys...uhm." I sigh but remain patient. He takes a breath but he looks very red. "H-how do you guys...k-kiss..?" I get a little red. I try my best to organize my thoughts. "Well...usually Osamu is the one to kiss me. F-for you though, maybe try giving a small kiss on the cheek." He nods. "So I just...go for it?" He slightly laughs. "Yeah like this." Osamu kisses me on the cheek unexpectedly and I smile. "O-or you can just let it happen naturally sometimes." He looks at me confused. "How does that work exactly?" I glance at Osamu. "Sometimes you simply just get the feeling to or, for example, when me and Osamu are already close together, we just both kiss...if that makes sense." I laugh slightly. This is embarrassing. Osamu is now laying his head on my shoulder. This idiot is about to say something stupid. "Probably not you but more Akutagawa, can also do things like this." I feel Osamu bite down on my neck and kiss it. I jab him. "I-idiot don't teach him stuff like that yet!" I cover my face. "Ohhh is that why you had a ton of 'bruises' when you came into the agency for the last conjoined mission?" I cover my entire face completely. "Well..y-yes but you two should wait a little bit until you get into that kind of stuff." He nods. "Speaking of, how are you and Akutagawa?" He ponders for a moment. "It's slowly getting better. I think he just has a hard time understanding how to express his love." I nod. I hear Osamu sigh in my ear. "I suppose I should have a talk with him." I look at Osamu. As far as I know, he's never liked talking about raising Akutagawa. I nod anyway. We sit in silence for a second before an idea pops into my mind. "Hey Atsushi, call up Akutagawa. Let's go on a double date together." He tilts his head. "Ok...but what's a double date?" I laugh. "Two couples go on a date with each other. Obviously we're not all dating each other but we're hanging out as two different couples. Does that make sense?" He nods. "Okay! That sounds fun!" I smile. How cute and childish. I wrap my arms around Osamu. He looks down at me and smiles. "Hi chuu." I smile widely. "Hi Osamu. Are you excited for our date?" He nods and kisses me on the nose. "I am. You better behave while we're out." My eyes widen and my face flushes red. "O-Osamu! Don't say such dirty things.." I look over and Atsushi is on the phone. He looks at me directly in my eyes. "Chuu I'm serious~" he smiles slightly. I feel myself swallow. Why does he have to be so pretty? I bury my face into his chest and use his shirt to hide my red cheeks. I feel his chest rise as he laughs slightly. He strokes my hair and I feel myself melt into his touch. It's so nice. My eyes flutter at his gentle touch. God I love him. I realize Atsushi is still here and I sit up. Osamu grabs me by the hips and scoots me closer. This'll be fun.

We meet up in our hidden cafe so we aren't recognized. I sit with in one booth and Atsushi and Akutagawa sit in the other booth across from us. There's plenty of room in the booths but Osamu is determined to be as close to me as possible. I don't mind it though. "Hello Akutagawa." He keeps his head tilted down with his eyes closed. "Hello Chuuya." Atsushi and Dazai talk for a bit before the waiter comes over to us and asks us what we want to drink. I order a coffee. I feel Osamu slowly move his arm around me but his hand is really low. My mind wanders for a second. He's so close to it. If he put his fingers there...what if he.... "—Uuya. Chuuya?" I look up. "O-oh uh y-yes Atsushi??" He laughs. "I was asking what you thought about ordering. I'm not sure what to order." He laughs nervously. "Oh. I'll probably just order some rice. Maybe they have Chazuke here?" His face lights up. "How'd you know it was my favorite?" I smile not really knowing how to respond. Osamu lightly jabs me. "It's his adorable motherly sense." I make an angry face and jab him back. "S-shut up." He laughs and turns away. Osamu turns towards me and leans in. "Wow...bold to be thinking such dirty thoughts in a public place like this chuu.." my eyes widen slightly. "S-shut up...not here." He simply smiles and kisses my cheek. I tense up and cover my face. "I-I-idiot not here!!" He laughs genuinely and I watch him in awe a bit. He's beautiful. "It's Osamu to you chibi. Why can't I kiss you, they already know don't they?" He leans in a bit and smiles. I make a fake pouting face. "N-no Osamu." He sighs dramatically and agrees. "Fine fine. No more kisses until tomorrow, I get it." I stop pouting. "What!? Hey that's not fair..." He smiles. "You're the one who didn't want kisses!" I lightly shove him. I cross my arms and smile at him. He smiles back. I hear a random loud crash. Everything is so dark. What happened? Where did Osamu go? I finally get a glimpse of light. There's crumbled pieces of something everywhere. My ears are ringing. Oh no. There's blood. Whose blood is that? I feel tired. I look up and Osamu is above me, crying. I've never seen him in this much pain. Why is he crying? The ringing in my ears slowly fades and I start hearing yelling and screaming. What happened? I look around again, I see shards of a...lemon b0mb. Am I on a mission with Kajii? I thought I was in a cafe. I can finally hear what is being shouted. I look back at Osamu. "Chuuya! Chuuya! Please you got to stay with me here. Stay awake." I cough and notice some blood come out. It's...my blood? H-how? "O-Osamu..." I look next to me and see a pool of my own bl0od. What is going on? "W-what..?" I see multiple tears fall from Osamu's eyes. I look at him confused. I look next to me again and watch as the light slowly begins to fade. I hear shouting but I can't tell what they're saying, but I know it's Osamu.