i said no

8.

when i saw you,

there was a smirk on your lips

(they are so pink so very pink

and i still remember the taste).

your grey eyes stared

right in to my own,

freezing the blood in my veins

(i could hear the ice

as it crunched and crackled).

you had one arm leaning oh so casually

on my best friend's locker

(when she called out my name

i wanted to puke).

your teeth showed

in a snarl

rather than a grin

(and i couldn't breath couldn't breathe

couldn't breathe)-

how could you fucking stand there

like you didn't lay your grimy fingers

all over my delicate skin?

like you didn't spell "i love you"

with smacks to my face

and the smattering of black and blue's

on my once creamy thighs?

how could you be so normal,

like nothing ever happened?

was it nothing to you?

because for me,

it was everything.

it will always be everything.