Reliable?

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by nonbianaryrj
by nonbianaryrj
                                    
                                              Dear me-
I am sorry you tried to desperatere to fix things when your own hands were shaking.when the the pain was so much it was used at pleasure.
I used to think that being reliable was something that only you could count on no one but yourself but things change as you change.
Note to self- make your bed 
Written -9/3/23 
"I really really really don't wanna get up rn I explained toward my dog sitting next to me not looking amused "your not helping very much are you Danny" Danny was my Australien Shepard that I found off the streets when I was little she's a big dog but veryyyy lazy...
I looked at my clock once again realizing I have to get up or else I'm gonna be late for class in the morning.
"Ughhhhh I hate this" I screamed at the top of my lungs because,well I can
I live alone in a 1 bedroom apartment that I have made my happy place ever since well my so called crisis (I got kicked out again)" I know I'm so smart I only yelled at my mom for being a complete and utter piece of shit again cause she is but this time not only am I kicked out I didn't study for my chemistry exam again.Which may not seem like a big deal to some but for me being a straight A student with an honorable record is not gonna turn out well for me if I get caught up with "him" again. "THATS BESIDE THE POINT LINA!!!" I thought to myself realizing I just spent another 5 minutes in my thoughts.
Eventually I ended up at North pass aka.my private high school filled with misfits perfectionists and rich kids,and I just happen to be one of all of them. I headed to class listening to music to clear my constant running head,but on the way I ran into some fucking ginger. "Watch your going Lean a!"she spat in my face 
"The fuck did u just call me?!"Lean a was a name I was givin by most of the rich bitches that are friends with amber after I was seen with "him".
oh shut it! We all know your an addict like ***** your little fuck boy ?
And with that I smacked the shit out of her.
Her face swung to the side with a *smack* .As I was packing my things to get to my next class I was stopped by one of the teachers with angry look on her face."Mrs Golding what in the world did I just witness?!" "I shrug my shoulders unsure of what to answer by and by no suprise I'm take to mrs Knox's room" just my fucking luck i mumble under my breath knowing exactly who I'm about to see. 
Soren Knox.