Dots

1,2,3,4... 4 more dots on my wrist. You see these dots remind me... that not everyone cares. Hi, my name is James... I am a girl so you know because for some reason most people care about stuff like that... but why should it matter any way? So back to introducing myself I am 13 years old... and we'll I guess you can figure the rest out.

  You might be wondering why do I put the dots on my arm...I can't exactly answer that completely but I can say that I have cut my self before, but it wasn't distracting enough.  It was only distracting in the moment.  However with the dots I can see them all the time... count how many times I have been hurt recently because eventually they fade and that leaves me with more satisfaction and less to be ashamed about considering nobody even has a clue what they mean.  And with that they all call me dots. So that is my answer for now...that is why I put the dots on my wrist.

  You most likely are thinking right now that I am too young to have such strong emotions... yet the reality is that I do. Even if I possibly cut myself in order to gain attention that must mean that I am so desperate and so lonely, enough, even to do that. Maybe some do it due to the fact that they think it is cool that would be yet another attempt to gain attention and we must not judge somebody who is that desperate, because we do not know their life as they do. Their I go ranting on sounding like some sort of bible of spiritual passage, even though I am an atheist.

Some of you might be thinking now that oh this explains it all she needs God to help her through these rough days. But no I don't because so many of you also believe that because of my being an atheist I will burn in he'll or the underworld or whatever. That is the main reason I do not believe in any God or Goddess because religion discriminates against things that make human being uncomfortable. Example gays, there is NOTHING with them in any way shape or form. This is not to say you may not believe in any God's or Goddesses, or that I will not be your friend if you do, but to say that if you try to make me believe in what you do then you will not only fail but also make me hate religions ways even more... and possibly you.

So this is the basics ans so yeah.