My Annoying Neighbour

10. Reaching Limits

Social Media is so fucked up..... friends are so fucked up.

I thought Chimon will stay with me but no he is busy with Perth, I don't what they are up to. And here I am crying all alone rethinking all the things happened today. And the cut on my wrist.... making me to regret things. Atleast I am thankful that I didn't get tattoo of her name when she asked me to get one.

Why I am so fucked up right now?

It will be good as long as she doesn't expose me infront of My Dad.

(Message popping)

Ohm
Phi....can you meet me?

Ohm
Don't ignore my calls.

Ohm
Please let's meet.

What does he expect me to do? Meet him? There is no way. I thought to myself ignoring his calls whipping my tears and tucking myself under the sheets.

(Knock on the door)

Phi....I know you are not asleep. He said near my door.

But please listen to me.

I walked towards the door to listen him.

I know....I am the reason why you ended up like this. I guess I shouldn't have come into your life...even if I came I shouldn't have confessed you my feelings when you are committed to Phi Namtan.

And I know......You are so confused right now cause I have been there, done that. It took me years to accept myself when I started figuring out things.

But then I saw you.....(Ohm smiles)
I know you are sick of listening to same shit but that's what it is. You make me smile like stupid for no reason, even without your concern you started healing something in me from inside. You made me accept myself for who I am. You made me realise what I am.

And for that I am thankful to you. But at the same time I wanna apologize for ruining things in your life....I was just.... being selfish even after knowing that you are not into Guys and I am sorry for trying, for not stopping my feelings towards you....I'm sorry to annoy you, I'm sorry to touch you, I'm sorry for making you feel stupid, I'm sorry for your heartbreak....I'm sorry that I showed up in your life. I'm sorry for whatever happened in the afternoon, I'm really really sorry for breaking you both.

I know saying sorry doesn't change things but still....Phi Nanon...

I AM REALLY SORRY....

If you want me to talk to Phi Namtan I will. I will tell her if was my fault...

(Nanon opens the door)

No, it wasn't your fault...I-I mean it was nothing to do with you.....Just stop saying sorry.

Are you sure? He asked bending down a little to meet my eyes.

I guess. I said now looking at him.

Your eyes are puffed up. I'm sorry.....for everything. I guess I shouldn't have-

Will you stop? I said it was "our thing" nothing to do with you.

Okay....!! Knock on the door if you need something.

Ye-Yeah.

Okay....then... I will leave...He said looking at his door....

And damn that's bad idea right, whatever I am thinking right now it's bad idea when I literally broke up with Namtan this afternoon. But still at that moment I said something which is unbelievable for Ohm.

Wanna Hang out? I asked him when he turned his back to me.

Huh?

I- I mean....I don't think I'll be fine if I just go back to my bed and think about things. I think it will be good to get air....with someone....