Bad taste

New home

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I felt the cold, the rain and the fear more than ever..Standing down, looking into the dark, feeling the taste of my own blood in my mouth, waiting to hear something..A sound, a shout, anything! The water level was rising more and more and I know there is nothing left to do, here is my advice. This is the only way, the best way, the better way. I feel the water entering my lungs, it doesn't hurt, it stings, but it's nice. I actually enjoy this feeling.I feel like I have a little, just some more pain until I left, until it's over, but then... I wake up.

My hair was in a messy bun, my makeup was all over my pillow, I looked at the phone screen, still no massages, it was 14:05 pm. I got up on my elbows to check the room. My clothes were still thrown on the floor, the closet door was half open and so was the bedroom door, next to me where Angelina used to be every morning, now there are only pillows. I slowly get out of bed feeling a little dizzy, I turn towards the door when but I notice something. Something is missing. Some of Agelina's clothes that were on the chair the day before were now no longer there, she probably put them in the washing machine , I hope.. I made my way to the kitchen, I searched the cupboards for the coffee capsules, I never make my coffee , I actually don't even drink coffee, but today is different. In the end I found them, put one in the device and waited. In a few seconds my coffee was ready, I took a sip. It seems that Angelina didn't even bothered to come back home.

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I tried to spend the day watching movies, trying to fall asleep, cooking. Nothing helps, as if time passes 10 times slower. I tried to call her, but she doesn't answer, she's probably mad at me.

I have nothing to do, boredom has won. I prepared my clothes, took a shower, straightened my hair and did my makeup. Maybe a walk would help the time pass faster. I took my keys and made sure I locked the apartment. I went down the stairs and opened the door with difficulty. The autumn breeze filled my lungs, it was pleasant, I started walking towards the nearest gas station.

Tokyo is a full city, especially in the afternoon, but it doesn't compare to the evening. With each step, a new thought appeared in my mind. What if those creeps kidnapped her, what if Bill raped her and now she is trying to kill herself, what if Tom did something to her? I arrived, pushed the door of the store and approached the counter.

"Hey dear, can I help you?" The shop assistant asked me. She is tall, way taller than me, her hair is dyed blonde, her eyes are dark green just like mine. Her name is Hailey according to her name tag on her chest, a pretty name to be honest.

"Yes actually, I want a pack of cigarettes and a coke please." I replied to her.

"Sure, what kind of cigarettes?" She asked with a smile on her face. I showed her what I want because I'm fucking bad at pronunciation. "Oh and a lighter too!" She smiled again and got the lighter. "This would be 7,02 dollars."

I gave her the money and then went out, I made my way to a park that was near the gas station, then I lit a cigarette. I choked on the smoke at first, but then I got used to it.

***

I did this for hours now, just a staying there and looking at people having friends and a life. I finished my coke a long time ago, so I'm going to get something to drink. In the evening it is much more crowded, I made my way into the bunch of people,I entered the store and Hailey is still here. I smiled at her and went to the counter.

"Oh look who's back!" She gave me a big smile. "How can I help you?" She asked.

"I want a beer." She looked a bit surprised by my answer.

"Are you a major?" I am only 17, definitely not a major but I do look like I am one, so maybe I should try my luck today.

"Yes, I am 22." I gave her a smile back.

"Can I see you're id card?" There are some people behind me so I can't pretend that I'm looking for it..I'm just going to lie.

"I actually don't have it right now, I left it in my apartment, but I can show it to you later." She looked a bit suspicious about my answer, I don't blame her, she may get trouble for selling alcohol to a minor.

"Fine but this is the first and last time." She then gave me the beer and I payed it.

I went to the parking lot and sat on the ledge. I opened my beer with my teeth, a little talent of mine, and started drinking. Not even 3 minutes later a car stopped in front of me, with its headlights on, which made me cover my eyes. I hear the door opening, then the lights and the car engine stop. Then a familiar voice..

"What the hell are you doing here?!?" He yelled, I don't know why is he mad, we only know each other for not even a day.

"I can ask you the same question." I replied looking at him. I saw a smirk on his face, I don't know how I should interpret that.

"Get up." He ordered me. Obviously I'm not going to obey him. "Get up I said."

"Why should I?" I raised my eyebrows.

"Because I say so. Get up or I'll make you to." His voice is calm, but his eyes are not.

"Make me." I tried to be as calm as him, but I just realised that I may regret what I just said when he got closer. He grabbed my elbow and stood me up, then he took the bottle from my hand and threw it away. The sound of the broken glass made me flinch a little.

"Now get in the car." He was still grabbing my elbow.

"Why in the world I would do that!?! I don't even know you!" I shouted.

"Can you stop acting like a child and just do what I say? You know who the fuck I am?!?" He was now mad.

"I'm sure I know who you are, you are a fucking creep, a stalker and a stupid ass boy! Now let go of me!" I tried to free myself from his hand, but all I managed to do was making him more mad.

"You are making things worse." He replied, being way too calm.

"Do I?!?" Obviously I do, but this is fucking weird!

"You made me do this." Before I could reply he opened the door of his car and pushed me in it, then I heard a "Close the doors!" and my body froze.

"Sorry." She said. Now I can feel my blood boiling.

"You bitch!" I yelled and turn to look at her. "You backstabber bitch! Do you even know what are you doing? Angelina you should protect me!" She didn't replyed. The door opened and Tom was now on my left, his face was expressionless.

"Any problems?" He asked and looked back at Angelina.

"No." This the only things she said.

Just no? This fucking backstabber. I want to kill her so much right know. I don't even understand what is happening, why this man is doing this to me? He doesn't even know me, why is he doing this? I am frozen, I can't speak, hear or move. I am looking straight, and the car began to move.

***

I didn't make a sound the whole way. I just cried, quietly.

We finally arrived. I looked up to see the biggest and most beautiful house I've ever seen in my entire life. Tom gets out, then Angelina. Tom opened the door for me, he grabs my elbow and pulls me out of the car.

"New home." He said and smiled at Angelina then at me.

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