I was texting Izzi, again, at about 3am. We were joking around about our future house together as best friends. We made -well- I made a list of rules then, rudely, she changed some of them.
But this was how our plan began, when we are older we will move in together. And we will live in a perfect house. And we will have an extremely cute kitten...
And a pet pony.
Somehow we moved on from this conversation and were discussing how it was late and we should sleep. I, being the annoyingly clingy bitch, complained that we never see eachother (other than at school) and I said something really cliche about how much I missed her.
Fast forward a long conversation, we were agreeing to meet up at 4pm since Izzi is soooo busy and soooo popular that she was out with other people and couldn't meet me until 4.
We would spend more time together, I guess, if we lived closer but we can't change that since we're only 14 and have no decisions in life. *glares at all the overprotective parents*
Anyway, the story of how it really began...
So we met up at Costa because, in reality, it's the only place we know half way between our houses.
She's standing there, leaning against a wall, waiting for her drink. Whilst I'm being such an awkward person and slowly walking over to say hi.
I didn't bother getting a drink, me drinking more coffee would have probably not gone well, I'm one of those people who need coffee to function but it also makes me extremely hyper (not my fault)
We walked out of Costa and, after almost being run over (again not my fault at all), we went and sat on a bench in the shade where we'd sat before together.
We sat and talked until we decided we would go see if one of our friends, Ellie, was around. As we walked towards her house, we awkwardly encountered Ellie and her mum walking the other way, who the hell goes anywhere on a Sunday afternoon anyway, everywhere is shut?!?!
So, we go and sit on a different bench in a small, quiet, area. We are sitting there talking about anything and everything until it goes silent. Not an awkward silence, a comfortable silence. I rested my head on her shoulder and she slightly leaned her head against mine. We were watching the most adorable child, maybe 3years old, running around in circles with his dad around a big bush, it was adorable.
Me and Izzi agreed that when we live together each of us can have children. Then we talked a little longer.
We were laughing as I gently kissed her cheek. She was kinda shocked but didn't think much of it other than realising how I'd been waiting to do that for a very long time. Izzi then found my awkwardness and blushing extremely entertaining whilst I wanted to hide away and not talk about the huge crush I have on my bestfriend.
Time passed where we talked more, we were holding hands and I was leaning on her shoulder again. We eventually decided that we should go and get some food since neither of us had eaten all day.
We walked back towards the highstreet and found a corner shop was open, we went and bought cookies then went and sat on the grass near where we'd sat earlier.
As cringy as it is, we were feeding eachother the cookies- hey don't judge she decided she would force feed me ITS NOT MY FAULT.Like we had a few weeks ago, eating soon became a food fight and the crumbled cookies in my hair were so uncomfortable.
After we stopped and called truce, we sat and hugged and I apologised for starting it. At that moment she crumbled another cookie over my head and called it even.We sat and laughed for a bit. Somehow we started talking about my ex girlfriend and Izzi was explaining how I'm more of a slut then her. (Even though I'm not)
Then Izzi decided that she would take the piss and tease me. I'm her only gay friend so she took advantage of it and got close.
It was fake, I know, but I will never get over what happened. She continued for over an hour before I had to leave and she found it extremely entertaining whilst my emotions were everywhere and I didn't know how to think.
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Such A Tease:She moved up close to me, her breath lightly touching my face. She moved from looking into my eyes, to staring at my lips and I realised that she was just playing with me.
Although she found this funny, I was nervous as hell and practically shaking, WHY WOULD ANYONE DO THIS TO THEIR BESTFRIEND??
She moved so our lips were nearly touching, but I knew she wouldn't kiss me, she's straight. Very straight. But still she continued to tease me.
She moved and started breathing on my neck as she gently placed a kiss on my cheek and started analysing me. She whispered breathily "You're really nervous. You're shaking. And every time I get close you start breathing heavily. I could stop if you want-" she paused and knew that as much as I hated this I didn't particularly want her to stop anytime soon "-but I don't think you want me to stop huh?"
I replied simply with "You're so annoying, this is so unfair."
She looks up at me again and we stare into eachothers eyes until I kissed her. How the hell I got the courage to actually kiss her, I don't know. The most surprising part was that she didn't pull away.
I kissed my best friend.
And she was okay with it.
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