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AMARIS💮

''Nothing compares to the feeling of uncertainty and the eeriness of silence''
-Jarad Anthony Higgins.

Blessed Virgin! My body ache like just came back from the club type of way but that's not what is strange this morning.

I can feel something behind me, rock hard something. uhm like a wall kind of something and I pray it's not what I'm thinking but it seems like not all of my prayers get answers.

Glancing back, I see him sleeping peacefully with his rock-hard body pressed to my back and his wavy hair looks messy probably from running his hands through it all night.

I slip away from his hold quietly so as not to wake him up. He shouldn't be here at all and I hate the way some part of my heart likes his presence.

My brain re-visiting last night's episode, I shouldn't have watched that clip. Heavens! I don't know why I keep watching what triggers my panic attacks, I wish I could forget about some things, and I wish some memories get locked away forever.

My eyes find the sleeping frame of the man behind me and I wonder what he was doing when Reid called him probably trying to sleep or get laid because he is still wearing the same clothes and I'm even more surprised by the fact that he came at that hour of the night.

No!No! No! I shouldn't allow him to win whatever game he is playing right now. This is what he wants and I would be a fool to fall for his tricks the second time.

He is my past. My horrible past and I won't be that girl who loved him blindly four years ago ever again. I made a mental note to tell my brother not to inform his friend about my issues when we talk later in the day.

Oh shit! I'm running late and where in God's name is Anita? I leave the room quietly, I don't want to disrupt his sleep at least he deserves a good sleep for coming through for me last night.

Reaching the living room, I notice the mess I created yesterday has been cleaned up and I'm met with a clean area, did he stay up all night to do this? I pack my hair in a ponytail as I enter the kitchen to make myself a cup of coffee before I start the day.

I recite my morning affirmation while making coffee and I swear my mind isn't into whatever it is I'm doing. All that is running through my head is shaped into a six-five foot man with messy hair and his green eyes piercing into my soul.

I shouldn't be thinking about him and I hate the fact that I can't help it. It's frustrating, why on earth did he come back in the first place? I was doing fine, my life was going well until the devil walked back into my life disrupting the perfect life I've created for myself in the last four years.

I've moved on from his heartbreak only for him to come back and re-open my fucking scars. I hate him and I hate my stupid blind heart for not seeing that he is a bag of walking red flags.

I scroll through my phone checking my messages and notifications, Anita sends a message that she will be running late, and Reid's messages of motivation and keeping Safe 101 got me smiling and shaking my head at my brother treating me like a baby every time.

Also, Darrien sent a good morning message and tons of love emoji and how much he misses me but a message from an unknown number got my attention

Unknown number: Do you think you will be happy forever?

Normally, I would ignore this kind of message if it were to be an Instagram DM because I get tons of weird messages from weird people at least 5 times a day.

This is different. It is a text to my number and only five people know about this particular number. Who is playing pranks on me? Anita wouldn't do this and Reid wouldn't either.