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☆ 𝐿𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦 ☆

Date: 25 august 2023

Day: friday

Time: 7:18 a.m

Dear diary,

That morning the sky was covered by grey clouds, and that meant the rain was coming, and the tear drops would've start to slide on the window.

The silence started to oppress me, along with the thought of you moreover. And while I fill my head with the moments we spent together, the happiness we felt back then, you're probably thinking about someone else.

I thought putting you first it would've been enough to let us last forever, and yet now that I'm losing you, I feel like I'm dying.

We spent every single day forcing our conversations, our smiles, just because I was selfish, and I couldn't let you go.
The nights I spent hoping that all of this was just a dream, and that one day I would've wake up with your warm smile besides mine.

I must've understood it was over from the moment you kicked me out the door in the living room, just because I took a deeper breath than usual. I must've understood we weren't meant to be when we were discussing about all the little things.

And eveytime I tried to run away, I would've comeback like a fool, because I was more afraid of being lonely than of being with you.

If only I could press the bottom "rewind" drawn on the remote control ,hoping to go back to the beginning ,when we were happy.

Letting you go means losing a part of me, and I beg you once again to stay with me one more time, because if it's over because of me I'll change and I'll come back as I was before.