depression and me

Always blaming me

My family always blamed me for everything like fights being rude  on social media which I'm not  I protect myself from bullies they always bully me having my own opinions and everything I'm not nasty or rude or horrible I had a hard life like everyone else I feel like the black sheep in the my family my dad loves to drink when I was a baby him not watching me   Lead me to pull the dishwasher off and burn my back with hot boiling water no he wasn't young he was 36 he knew what he was looking after he was going out all the time pubs drinking like lots of till he was drunk mum hates his drinking all the time I was born different from my little sister I'm freak I'm nobody  I'm worthless  my dad always horrible to me now even on my birthday my older half sister thinks so low of me she thinks I'm crazy and nothing she doesn't like me because I got autism she always hates me she blames me for her mental health problems even I just a baby back then we got different dads she hates my dad her dad died when she was 4 blames it on me I wasn't even born then my other half sister always telling me what can or can't buy I want pair of Jordan's for it's getting paid for with my money not her she getting involved in my business she wants me to buy her stuff when I get paid she wants me gone my sister Elisha is always stealing my money won't admit it she doesn't want me to have money she said I don't deserve it it's what I live on she don't understand people with disabilities I think she hates them the way she treats me like crap she thinks all that she not I got depression and anxiety and lots other things she thinks knows it all she don't both of my half sisters don't understand me I feel like ending my life they always talk down to me like they have higher power then me but they don't they always criticising me my loves and likes and my favourite things they shouldn't they can go away I wish they stop picking on me all the time they vile to me I can't deal it with anymore it's hurts and I self harm myself as of result they really pissing me off I wish I was never here the world would be better without me in it that's how I feel and I can't do anymore why do they take pride? in bullying me. They like the mean girls they nice to  real  sister  belle more she  all that  to them I don't think my mum  loves me I feel like I was a mistake and her  and my dad never wanted me I should never been born i wasn't mean to be with my family they hate me so much they're always chatting about  me behind my back my mom just gave me dirty glares at me as I'm writing this she think all she likes I don't care she needs to