beloved | h.p.

chapter one

The smell of cinnamon and pumpkin spice hangs in the crisp autumn air. The golden and orange leaves under my feet crunch with each step. I pull the red scarf tighter around my neck and tear the hat over my ears. It's freezing, and I can see little clouds when I breathe out.

I had spent the chilly October afternoon running errands, and now I am more than excited to take a long, warm shower before sitting down in the Gryffindor common room and sipping hot chocolate.

Clove and Valli are already back at Hogwarts.

Big grey clouds form above me, and I fasten my pace. Of course, I forgot to bring an umbrella with me today. I had spent hours on my curls and make-up, and I don't want it to be ruined now, just because of my stupidity.

Tonight the Hufflepuffs are throwing a small Halloween party, and me and my friends are, thanks to my sister Hannah, invited. Well, a small party is an understatement, really. Hufflepuffs are known for their wild nights. Not only the music and drinks are helping for a fun and yet peaceful time. These badgers really know their plants, don't they?

My mind already skips through all the outfit options I have laid out. I need to look good. Not for anyone in particular. But for me,. Okay, and maybe to show off in front of my ex-boyfriend how hot I had become over the summer holidays.

Obviously, Cedric Diggory, girl crush and Quidditch Captain of the Hufflepuff House, is going to be there. With none other than his new girlfriend, Cho Chang. My longest friend, whom I had known since kindergarten. She had decided to throw away our nineteen years of friendship for a guy. The moment Cedric and I ended things, she threw herself at him.

It still pains me to think about it. So tonight I am not only to get wasted but also find someone to give me other things to think about or help me to don't think about anything.

Valli would say, a good fuck solves everything. Maybe she is right. Even though I only ever had sex with Cedric, since he was my first everything, I craved more than just flower sex. He was great. But I need it rough.

I think. I never experienced it before, but when I hear stories about it, my heart flutters, and I want nothing more than to get fucked into oblivion.

But only tonight. Tomorrow, I will get back to my life. My perfect life. The life I had built over the years. And it's not going to be ruined by a broken heart and the betrayal of the two people I had trusted the most.

My eyes water. I let out an annoyed growl and wiped the tears with my hand before stopping the motion.

"Fuck.", I mutter under my breath. Partly because my heart aches in pain or because my mascara is probably smudged now.

The first raindrops fall, and I curse more than once while I start running. The walls of the castle tower tall and dark in front of me.

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When we step into one of the greenhouses, it is already packed. The music blasts loudly, and it is hard to understand each other. Someone hands us red plastic cups. My friends and I cheer before we all take a sip. It burns in my throat, but I don't stop drinking. I finish the whole drink in less than ten seconds before I hold up the empty cup like a trophy. My friends cheer and giggle as I try to suppress a burp.

Everyone is in a costume or is wearing at least some kind of Halloween-themed accessory. I'm wearing a tight black dress that stops only a few centimeters under my ass. Black satin gloves cover my arms. My hair is in a bun and secured with a tiny silver crown.

I touch the heavy silver necklace around my neck while I play with my wand in my other hand. Clove helped me transform my wand into a long cigar, or at least the optic.