I had daddy issues since I was nine years old
Ever since I turned nine years old I was excited to of course but if I knew what was coming it I turned nine I would kill myself
My dad had to go to the hospital cuz he was acting weird as shit after that he hasn't been normal since. He used to be not a dick but he is now and I can't do anything to stop it of course
He should have been loving me like a good father would have but I had to suffer in silence.
One day my sister showed me a guy playing five nights at freddy's security breach on YouTube when I was 11, ever since I started watching him he's been that father figure for me. I'm 13 now when I'm writing this book.
I don't understand sometimes how can a YouTuber can be a better father figure than your actual dad it doesn't make sense.
This happened in June I think somewhere around then, my dad had to go to the hospital again for the same reason he was acting weird. My mom stayed at the hospital with him for about 3 days I was alone mostly, well I had my grandparents, they live with us but that can't do shit really so I had to find easy things to cook for myself I was 12 when this had happened. Those were probably the best 3 days of my life I was alone my dad wasn't around at all it was just me. My sister had visited her biological dad's side of the family
