When life tastes bitter than lemons

Insert 3 ( issy's pov)

It was now Sunday morning and I had to go to church wami was still sleeping meaning I was going to church alone today as always. After putting in my Sunday dress and doing some light make up I went downstairs and saw aunty milly doing the dishes.i found aunt milly 5 years back when i moved to Johannesburg she took me in and stayed with me when  i was still pregnant with owami and i was completing my second final year in varsity and working a part time job to help aunt milly she knows what happened to me and from that day she became the mother figure I've always craved to have.

Me: Hoseng aunt milly( morning aunty milly)

She turned with a smile..see I know southern Sotho since my mom was from that side and I really enjoy speaking it .

Aunt milly: hoseng morali oa ka o ea kerekeng?(morning my daughter,are you going to church)

Me:yes ma but I'll be back before 2 a friend of mine is dropping her daughter here but I'm going out with her

Aunt milly:ho lokile ha ho na bothatha ke hore setloholo sa ka se ntse se robetse.
(okay no problem is my grandson still sleeping)

Me:yes he is I thought of waking him up but he looked tired he was playing the whole day yesterday your grandson is becoming a gentleman wait till Kayla comes this afternoon then you'll see

Aunt milly:ke ne ke lula  ke tsene hore moshanyana eo e tla ba motho ea  ratehang.
(I always knew that boy boy would be a charmer )

She said laughing haii aunty milly really loves Owami xem

Me::haike let me go to church I'll see you when I come back .

I said going to the garage then got in blue Porsche panemera turbo. Yes my favorite sport car in the garage .

When i got to church the pastor was just ascending the stage yoo since I'm late I'll sit at the back once.The pastor started preaching and let me tell you it was like God was talking to me.

The topic was forgiving and letting go of the past . Though I told myself that I've let go of my past I did not forgive I still had that thing of holding a grudge against my past ..

Pastor Monde opened from Ephesians 4 verse 31 to 32 Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice. Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you."

Then his words where :let go of what's holding you back fight it until it knows it's place but while fighting do not forget to ask God to give you the strength do not forget to ask God to help you fight your battles while ten thousand my fall on right hand let him lead you out of the darkness and your past allow God to tame your anger don't hold grudges but while doing that don't forget Matthew 6 verse 15 But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins." Always forgive so you can be forgiven holding grudges won't make it better but will only prevent you from receiving some of the blessings God has for you always tell yourself in the morning I'm forgiving and putting the past behind me ,I'm getting rid of the negativity and focusing on God's Goodness.

I just sat there thinking of my own life maybe this was a sign I couldn't question God cause he knows what's best for me so all I had to do was pray a prayer of thanks giving.

After the message we prayed and I made a very powerful prayer that if it was Gods will than so be it I will forgive my family and everyone who didn't treat me well in my past I made sure i prayed very hard to a point where i had remove my heels so I can be free.

Church was now out and I had to go home so I can get ready for my lunch with Christina.

I was about to enter my car when I heard my name being called.

??:issy ,Sisipho!!

I turned and it was brother mike ,brother mike is hulk if I can say those typical dark Zulu guys who are well built.

Me:Ow hey brother mike

Mike:sawbona Sisipho and stop with the brother mike call me mike.

Oww okay I didn't see that one coming.

Mike:anyways I wanted to ask if everything is fine you looked very disturbed in today's service.

Hee lo bhutiza was busy checking me out instead of concentrating at what the pastor was saying haii

Me:yes mike Everything is fine I was just taking in what the pastor was saying and you know you should do that too .

I said nodding my head

Mike:yell I was just looking out for you,Uphi Owami?(where's Owami?)

Me:ngamshiya ekhaya,abukeka emangele ukuthi angabi budlabha kepha kufanele ngiphuthume kwenye indawo ukuze ngizokubona elangeni elizayo ngesonto (i left him at home,look mike not to be rude but i have to rush somewhere so I'll see you next week sunday

Mike:ow okay no problem see you

Mike is really weird trust me especially after i rejected him . I mean I'm honestly not ready to bring another man in my life i just wanna focus on my life and boy boy's.

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