Somewhere I don't exist with you-- Yunjin FF/ Lesserafim / Girlxgirl

Chapter 7-I love you Yun-

Aethra still can't believe Yunjin is not with her anymore.
At Yunjin's funeral, everyone was crying except Yunjin's Father.
Meanwhile Aethra was just sitting there with puffed, red dark eyes still trying to process Everything.
Aethra walked up to Yunjin's Father and said,
"She hated you always."

"What did you say?" The father furrowed his brows.

"I said she hated you, before she died she told me even when dying she was hating you." Aethra said while looking into his eyes sharply.

The father seemed really pissed off. His eyes were turning red. Its like he couldn't control his temper anymore.
"Excuse me." He said and walked away.

Aethra watched him go away and then went to Yunjin's Mother.

"Hi. I'm Aethra Yunjin's best friend." Aethra introduced.

"Oh hi Sweetie." The mother said while wiping her tears repeatedly trying to talk.

"You know, when she was dying-" Aethra tried to speak but it was hard. The memory of Yunjin burning, getting covered, suffering in those flames , is destroying her. Destroying every single piece of her.

"She...she said she loves you a lot. You took care of her a lot and she will always be thankful." Aethra said somehow.

"Ow, thank you sweetie for telling me that. Oh Yunjin baby..." the mother broke into tears again , covering her mouth , sobbing.

Aethra really had no more tears to cry.
Its like all her tears has been used and now she has no more water left in her body.
She hasn't eaten much in past 4 days.
She wants to die.
She wants to feel the pain Yunjin felt.

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Aethra is Infront of Yunjin's grave with flowers and a daisy bracelet and a dandelion.

She sits on the ground Infront of the grave , trying to put herself together to speak something.

She takes a deep breath and starts pouring her heart out .

"Yun... everything, the world, your father, my life, every single thing is cruel. And the person who made me smile. Who made me believe that love exists, whom I loved with my whole heart, is gone. Just left me.
You didn't feel anything at all Yun? Huh Yunjin, how could you do this?
Why did you decide to just give up your life like that for me?! For my life?" Aethra yells and tries to hold back her sobs. Tears are streaming down her face hysterically.

"Yun, I love you so much it hurts. I wish you could see me as someone more than just your best friend.
We could've made so many happy memories but here we are Yun. You not here and me just crying ugly here trying to express my feelings now that you're.....you are gone.
Every single night I look at the stars, and I imagine the star which is shining the most is you. Because you shine a lot Yunjin. You made my life shinier.
Yun, now every second, every minute, every hour , every day , every week, every month , every year, my whole life will be empty. Because you aren't here-" Aethra sobs and tries to put herself back together again.

"Why just why? That day, I decided that I'll confess and I had no idea something like that would happen.
Everything was going to good , so great, but suddenly it just-
Everything just got ruined.

Yun, I promised you that I'll always stay with you, forever. And I'm a word Keeper." Aethra takes a deep breath and gulps , she looks and the sky and says,

"But now you are somewhere I don't exist with you. Please wherever you are don't forget me. I'll come for you. I always do.
They say people forget each other when they meet in afterlife. But I hope you won't forget me Yun. If I see you and realise that u Don't even remember me that'll hurt even more.
I know , I just know that I will never ever ever forget you.
You're the biggest piece of my life Yunjin. I love you. You can't even imagine how much I want to hug you right now, kiss you right now, just to tell you how much I loved you and still love you and will always do.
I would give my soul just to tell u how I felt, how much I love you and to just hold your hands again. To feel you again." Aethra cries for some minutes before taking the dandelion in her hand.

"Remember the day we blew dandelions? I wished that , You will always be with me, always and forever. Until the last day. I can't lose you. I love you. And I wish your happiness too along with my family's. Only if you were here, I could've known what u wished for too. But see? Nothing goes according to the plan. It never went."

Aethra closes her eyes.
"So now I'm making a wish out loud, I wish that, I'll meet you again. Wherever you are I'll find you. I'll hold you again. I'll not leave this time and you won't too, and I'll always keep my promise of being with you Forever, until the end." Aethra blows her dandelion.

"In this life, I think that's how long forever is, but in the afterlife...the forever will be more long Yunjin, I just know it. I'll admire and love you so much.
You know, even if we don't get to remember each other, I'll just look at you because of how you beautiful you are. Just like the first day.

Today, I'm leaving this town, we got a nice house there. Well, it's not that far away. I'll try to come and visit you, and of course the stars. I told you I'll always be with you. You can't hide from me huh Yunjin, never." Aethra chuckles softly while tears streams down her cheeks.

"It hurts so bad leaving this town where I grew up, where I met my first love, where all the memories I share with you, but I have to go Yunjin.
And I'll find you again, pinky promise.

Here's a daisy bracelet. The day we made the daisy bracelet, you looked to perfect. Too perfect for me.

I love you so much, Yun."

Aethra closes her eyes and looks at the name Huh Yunjin on the tombstone.

She takes a deep breath trying to stand up.

"Aethra, are you okay?" A familiar voice calls from behind. Aethra turns around and it's her mother.

"Yes I'm okay Don't worry." She tries to smile.

"Okay, we gotta go hurry up."

"I'm ready mom.." she says while wiping her tears.

"Aww poor Yunjin...." her mom hugs her and holds it for some seconds.

"Sweetie I know it hurts, but sometimes you have to let it all go. You have to let go of many more things in life."

"I wasn't ready to let go of her maa." Aethra says while burying her face in the crook of her mom's neck.

"Aethra, you never know what you have to let go. No one tells you what you have to let go. It just disappears someday."

"hmm.. mom , Let's go."

"Let's go Sweetie." Her mom says as she pats her back.

"I'll miss you so so much, Yun."
Aethra whispered while looking at the grave before going into the car.