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Part one Dear Diary

Dear Diary,

Every day is the same.
Wake up.

Bring Beth to school.

Stare out of the window.

Pick Beth up.

Go to work.
Go Home.

365 days a year the same thing.

The last exciting thing that happened was Beth's birth.
Since then everything went downwards.

I lost my home.
I lost my boyfriend.
I lost my friends.

Depression.

I'm just looking forward to the day that, I don't have to fight anymore.
I want to be happy too,

But that monster, that big black monster keeps following me around.
Everywhere I go, Everything I do, It's trying to put me down.
And I just want him to disappear.
I want him to leave.
I want to be happy too.
But it's not that easy, It's not a disease you can just fix with pills.
It won't fade just fade away with some rest.
You've got to fight for it.
But I'm weak.

One day I'll be a good mom.
One day I will find a boyfriend that she will call daddy.
One day Beth will come home and tell me I'm world's best mommy.

She, Beth.
Is the only reason I'm still fighting.
And I won't give up.