Loosing a war with myself.

Have you ever felt like you're going crazy? For me I don't think, I know.

I am crazy, that's why I'm setting here talking to Mrs.Croww a person who is here to make me feel 'safe'. How do I feel 'safe' when the one trying to hurt me is myself? "I have person living in my head, she looks like me, acts like me, but wants to kill me." I said looking Mrs.Croww in the eyes, she was tall maybe she would be it was because of the heels.

"Tell me more about this person? Is she hurting you Kizzi?" Mrs.Croww was only saying my name to make sure that I was me. " she's just like me but evil, she wants to kill everyone" I said picturing 'Kiz's' smirking face.

"everyone? Even you?" Mrs.Croww put down her note pad. I looked her in the eyes again "I'm first" I knew this was true from all the times that she tried, I have the scars, one across my eye that almost blinded me, another across my heart that might kill me, I might die from it, if she doesn't kill me first. "Kizzi, did she put the scars on your body?" she looked at my arms." She only cut my eye and heart, I did the rest on my own. I was trying to kill her."

I've tryed to kill her every night with my blade that I snuck into the instatute that they have me staying at. "To kill her I have to kill myself, to kill me she has to take over, no killing needed, untill.....after" I said as I took a paper clip out of the cup off of Mrs.Croww's dest and trasted it around my scars "pain is the only way to know witch one is in my body"

I took the paper and edged it into a cut from last night and watched it bleed, putting a smile on my face. "I guess I'm Kizzi right now. " I pulled the blade out of my back pocket and felt dizzy.... here she comes. "I guessed wrong I am Kiz"

the blade sunk in to arm poring out more blood " STOP!" I yelled "why it's so fun!" Kiz said smirking as I felt the blade outline my throat and saw Mrs. Croww who was up against the wall with fear in her eyes I started to cry...this was the end. "Kizzi.....Kiz you don't have to do this" Mrs.Croww stepped closer. I felt the blade pierce my throat braking only a little skin "third times a charm, now Kizzi should I go deeper?"

Kiz's voice was mine but with more....of an evil edge, the blade went deeper I let out cries of pain. I felt breathless everything became blurry then I blacked out. When I came to every thing was still a daze, it took me a couple minutes to notice i was in an ambulance. I herd a guy say "I don't think she'll make it", then I herd a flat line on a hear monitor and blacked out.