I stood there looking at my 'baby bump in the mirror. Jonah came over to me, and touched my stumic, "If Kiz is born, and we can get her out of our baby, what do we do after that" Jonah said as he looked in my eyes for the first time in months. Time here goes by fast it's been two months now. Her a day is really a week they did that so they could control the life of the babies. Jonah is only aloud to see me for a hour a day until the baby comes. It kills him. " Are we keeping her?" I said holing my belly. "We're only 13, we life in a hell hole. How are going to raise a baby?" Jonah said, but he wasn't yelling, he couldn't yell at me at all, not while I was pregnant. " I can't give her away, not to anyone in this place." I said looking in the mirror at my forehead, would they do the same to her?
"Kizzi are we....." Jonah began but he stoped. "Are we what?" I asked looking him in the eyes. "Are we together?" He said this so hesatently that I could barly hear him. "No!" I yelled, I know it was rude but I could never love him. "Jonah you're my friend an d my friend only" I said but he looked at my belly. "Only friends, that have a baby together." Jonah said as I backed away from him. I can never love him I will say it as many times as I need to, just until I for get that feeling that he made me have when I looked him in the eyes after I found out about my baby. I saw a human in his eyes, but he's not human, he's a freak, a monster, just like I used to be.
A knock on the door stopped all that I was thinking of. The door opened slowly, Oy'Hay! I smiled from ear to ear! That was the boy that I loved, he was tall and cute, he understude me more than Jonah ever could. "Hi Oy'hay!" I said wiping tears from my face, I didn't even know I wasa crying until now. "It's my turn to be in here with Kizzi" Oy'Hay said. I have learned to love the sound of his voice.
It was time for me and Oy'Hay to spend time together. Oy'Hay didn't know that I loved him, I tried to get over it but I just couldn't he was so cute, and sweet I just had to tell him how I felt. I watched as he sat on the bed next to me, he had on a black tee shirt and camouflage cargo shorts. I couldn't stop myself from blushing.
"Oy'Hay, I need to tell you something." I said, thinking of how I was going to put this into words. "Yeah Kizzi?" Oy'Hay said while running his fingers past his long black hair. It's like he was trying show off his good looks, "Oy'Hay for a while now....." I began, "I've had feelings for you." I said, not trying to wast time. "What types of feelings?" Oy'Hay said, "love" I said quietly looking away from him.
Oy'Hay got up and paced the room, making his fifteen year old body into a drum of footsteps. "I can't believe...." He began, I feared that he would feel the same way about me that I felt about Jonah. "That you have the same feelings that I do" he finished. I tried to think of something to say but all that came out was "what?" I said this louder than I said anything else. I watched as he sat on the bed agin, this time he grabbed my hand.
"When I saw your soul" he began, "I knew that you and I were a perfect match. Actually, I made us the perfect match." He said, but I didn't understand what he was trying to say. "I engraved my soul in yours, just like you did to Jonah" Oy'Hat said this with a smerk.
YOU ARE READING
Loosing a war with myself.
TerrorI am Kizzi Dains, and I have an evil person living in my head. She looks like, talks like me, even has my nickname, but she is evil and wants to everyone, staring. with. me.
