My 1k letter to Marius

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𝐇𝐢 𝐛𝐚𝐛𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐈 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐚 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐚𝐠𝐨, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐈 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐠𝐨𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐢𝐭 𝐧𝐨𝐰- 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭, 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐚 𝟏𝟎𝟎𝟎-𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮, 𝐬𝐨 𝐈 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐖𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐩𝐚𝐝 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐢𝐧 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐲 𝐧𝐨𝐭? 𝐈 𝐡𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲 𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐈'𝐥𝐥 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐛𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐲 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 <𝟑





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     I love you, and of course, that in of itself won't always be believable, because many have lied saying those words before. But I do. I love you so much I can't take it, it's like a disease taking over me more than I'd hoped. I truly believed this would've just been something that would come and go, but the more time I spend with you, - or just thinking about you, - the more I lose myself to this feeling, this disease. I can't get enough though, so wouldn't that mean this is more so a drug then? I don't know, all I know is that I never want to let this feeling go. I've grown addicted to it. I know I can't live without it or you.


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     Talking about you. Oh, you. You're so- you. I can't find the right words right now, and I don't think I ever will because you are so perfectly you, there will never be anyone like you, and I want no one unless they are you! You make me act in the worst but best ways. I nor you can possibly fathom the deep deep love I'll always carry for you, this drowning but floating feeling. By the very gods, I swear I'd never want to rid you of my life. Never. Because when I'm faced with the enigma that is you. I'm gone. Never to be seen again, never wanting to be found if it meant I could stay hidden within you. The feeling and touch of you you you.


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     Ugh, my mind is plagued by you. I think so much of you I almost hate it. Almost. We'll marry, have our 4 cats or so (we'll see), get a nice apartment to start, and then later a house with a huge garage for the cars you oh-so-love. I would spend it all on you. Sure, I don't have much to me now. I know I'm a HUGE spender, don't work part-time, and only living off of the 1,500kr I get a month, but I swore to myself I'd get my shit together. For you, all for you. I'd get a damn job, I don't care where (I do.) I have a list of things I wanna buy you. Some of the shoes on your wishlist, fucking val points for all the times you've bought me skins, some F1 clothes from H&M cuz we always sucked at finding them at the mall, rubix cubes, that Koenigsegg keychain and bracelet, trips to parks, why not flowers and treats, those jaeger meister shot glasses and generally a bottle cuz I know you want a collection of all sizes and what not, all kinds of car LEGOs and general LEGO.


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     I would give it all to you. Heart, soul and mind. Yours. Since the beginning. I was planning on cutting some of my spendings on myself, some subscriptions to maybe pay for a fitness subscription to train with you whenever you want to. I don't care. I just want to see you passionate. Doing what you want to do, whatever it is, was or will be. Seeing you boast about hitting a new PR, seeing you flex your muscles in the mirror. I love it all. Both your body and mind. Your very being itself. You're captivating, and enthralling. Shit, I just can't get enough.


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