When I was younger
I loved to go outside, and read, play, draw, sit, run, walk, ect
But when I went into 5th grade thats when I started to get bullied
By my "friend"
She sent me threats like
"If you ever tell anyone about this im gonna kill you" or
"You should go kill yourself because no one likes you"
And I believed that because I was young
But did I told anyone
NOPE
I keeped it to myself and took it to heart
When I was JUST started 6th grade I tried to kill myself
My mom found out and took me to the hospital
She wasn't too happy about that
She yelled at me
She cried
She called my dad
He didn't show up
He only showed up to pick me up from the hospital
But that was ok
I never liked him
When I got out my friends yelled at me
I didn't care
When I was in 7th
I struggled with my mental health and tried again to kill myself
And when I did it again
I was in a play
Everyone asked the director where I was
She said that I was "sick"
I was "sick"
But not that type of sick
I was mentally sick not physically sick
I was in the main hospital for 5 days
When I got transferred
I was there for 2 weeks
Did I get better
Kinda
But did it go down hill
Yea
But did I care
Naw
Did my teacher cared
Yea
Did he know where I was at
Yea
Who told him
My mom
Did I want my mom to tell him
No
Am I happy that she did
Yea
But when school got out
I started to Self Harm again
And I almost took my life again in July
I have scars to show my Battle
I know how hard it can be
To have suicidal thoughts
I been there and its not fun
If you are feeling like taking your own life Please call the suicide hotline
And Its 988
