FALLING FOR THE EVIL QUEEN

Personality Of Destruction

Disclaimer: This chapter contains depictions of suicidal feelings, drug abuse, murder feeling, psychological disorders, and urge to be loved. These topics may be triggering or upsetting for some readers. Please read with caution and at your own risk. If you are struggling with any of these issues, please seek professional help or contact a crisis hotline in your area. You are not alone and there is hope.
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A completely exhausted Haseena entered her room, her facial expressions were completely faded while her eyes were bloodshot red and puffy resembling that either she held a great amount of anger or guilt.

But in reality, she held both. She was in guilt but her guilt started fading under her Anger towards herself.

The conditions had worsened, but Haseena never let the outer world know what kind of unstable war was going on inside her.

She just closed the door and looked towards the wall, she was zoned out for a minute or so and then suddenly she shouted at the top of her lungs, "ahhhhh!!!", venting out the turmoil she held.

The room had soundproofing because of which the sounds weren't able to go out of the room.

Haseena's hands and legs were trembling and her whole body started shivering badly. She just crawled into the corner of her room and encircled her arms around herself. But her body didn't stopped shivering, it looked as if she was feeling chilliness. She kept rubbing her hands on her body to make it warmer but nothing worked in her favour.

After trying for some more minutes she gave up and stopped rubbing herself. She just rested her head on the wall and with tired eyes looked at the ceiling.

"Hum...Hum thak chuke hai ladte ladte. Duniye se ladna fir bhi ek waqt aasan hai par khudse?" Haseena mumbled weakly while tears emerged from her eyes. She just hid her face between the palms.

But as she closed her eyes, everything went dark. She again fell into her past and the whole story started playing again infront of her eyes. She tried to move but found that her body was freezed and she wasn't able to move or do anything.

Her past was the biggest threat for herself while the half sleep paralysis attack wasn't showing any kind of mercy over the latter.

After some minutes the paralysis attack ended and Haseena being completely exhausted just tilted to the forward direction. Her body didn't had any energy left, she just fell on the floor while tears were still flowing down from her eyes and her body was still shivering badly.

She kept lying there at the same position for about half an hour when she felt that she was having some problem in breathing. Slowly she turned her body and rested on her back.

Hassena's tears stricken face looked horrifying. It looked furious and miserable at the same time. But what was the reason it was holding two different emotions and feelings at the same time?

I agree what I did was wrong. And I don't deserve to live. But what about you Haseena? Jo dard mene usee diya vo kuch bhi nhi hai Jo dard tune usee diya uske saamne. She kept begging for the love, but what you did? I harmed her body but you've killed her soul way too earlier. Agar meri maut jayaz hai toh tera anth bhi toh nischit hona chahiye na. Be fair darling."

Shamza's words rang in Haseena's ears when a voice from inside came..."Pyaar karti hai Karishma se?"

She got paused for a second and mumbled, "Haa"...