Sugarhill Imagines.

Idiot - Part two.

Y/n POV

I've been staying in a highrise apartment in New York for 6 months.

The view was really the best part.

I would often catch myself staring out the windows instead of anything else.

I heard Ddot would be using the apartment under me for a music video, considering I was in the highest floor.

They tried to rent my apartment, but I declined the offer.

I didn't want Ddot anywhere in my apartment, it was bad enough he was downstairs, actually being inside my apartment was way too much.

He released a song called "Leray", which is my last name.

Most of what was said in that song wasn't true, and honestly I felt disrespected.

But then again, I did cheat on him.

Whatever. I hate thinking about him.

I heard loud music blaring from downstairs and rolled my eyes, of course he was probably down there.

No, not probably.

He was literally playing "Leray"

Good to now be here.
It was love at first sight, and misery after to months.
Always feeling fucked up, either by love over no love.
"I thought you was married to the single life," she said.
I wasn't necessarily looking for happiness, just less pain.
I shoulda said something.
You said the only thing wrong with money was you ain't have enough of it. You said you deserve better and now so do I.
Anyways, the best part of us was me.
When you got with me, you were a genius.
Now, you'll have to live life as a idiot.
I don't write songs, I write life. I told you that.
And you were only fuckin' with my feelings because you didn't know your own.
I do miss who I thought you were.
Sometimes I'm miserable without you...so it's just like you're still here; shit.

I sat and thought about that song.

He didn't like me at first, so "love at first sight" wasn't true at all.

If he was miserable, he definitely didn't act like it. And trust me, he's a horrible actor, so he wasnt miserable.

I said I thought he was married to the single life, because he was before we started dating. 

I understand he's in pain, I do. He's lost Notti and Edot, who both happened to be in his closer circle.

And yes, he should've said something, I wouldn't have forced him to be in a relationship that he didn't want to be in. Believe me, all I wanted was for him to be happy and successful.

I never told him I deserve better, I thought he was as good as love gets.

The end of relationship was kind of rocky anyway.

He had cheated on me a couple times in the last couple months, which I guess nobody was talking about, but again, whatever.

He was always secretive and we barely spoke, but we were childhood friends which is why it was so hard to let go.

I started playing my music really loud.

I heard a loud bang on my door and opened it with an attitude.

"Wha--" I cut myself off.

"Can you turn that shit off?" An annoyed Ddot stood staring down at me.

His eyes widened and I started at him with a blank expression.

His eyes weren't their usual color, they were darker than usual and he looked angry, and drunk. But, who's counting?

"No, I pay rent. Bye." I said, trying to shut the door.

"Nah, there was fa sure a notice to keep down the noise a couple weeks ago, you ain't get it?" He smirked.

"No, and even if I did, I probably threw it away. It's MY apartment and I can do what I want because I pay rent here. Can you go?" I rolled my eyes.

Why was he doing this, he couldn't have sent his manager up?

He furrowed his eyebrows.

"Wait, you not-- you not gon' apologize?" He asked, inviting himself inside.

I sighed and threw my hands to my sides.

"I already did. A while ago." I said, simply, not wanting him to think I was still caught up on him.

A part of me wanted to pull him into a passionate kiss and fuck out the anger, but the rational part told me to leave him alone.

"You slept with my homie bro." He said, making a "really?" Face at me.

"Okay, 'bro', you slept with my best friend, too. Or...do you not remember that?" I crossed my arms and stood in front of him.

His mouth made an O shape as he looked down.

"My bad." He shrugged.

"Yeah, your fuckin' bad, now, please go." I said, unamused.

I felt a hand wrap around my neck and push me against the wall in a swift motion.

"If I wanna be up in this bitch, imma damn well do that shit, you heard? I ain't a pussy ass nigga who gon let you play me fa stupid right now." He said into my ear.

He looked over me one more time before leaving.

I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding and tears filled my eyes.

He just didn't care about anything. I'll just turn the music off and wait.

I locked the door and shut the music off.

I heard the song a couple more times before I heard someone yell very loud.

"ALRIGHT, THATS A WRAP."

I sighed and started thinking.

I was peeled from my thoughts when a booming knock echoed down the hallway.

I knew who it was, and didn't want to see him again.

I turned my phone on silent, and I. Glad I did because he started blowing me up.

I answered the phone.

"For someone who makes you miserable, you sure call a lot." I sniffled.

"Bro, I'm sorry, aight? Just open the door, and imma talk to you."

"What if I don't wanna talk? You were clear in your song."

What else was there to say? I couldn't say yes, but I didn't want to say no.

I sighed, hanging up the phone and walking to the door.

I opened it s little bit to see Ddot with puffy eyes and a blunt.

I rolled my eyes and let him in, moving out of the way so he could get in.

"Look, ma.. I'm sorry about the song, okay? I was just...hurt. I haven't even been able to talk to DD in a hot ass minute, but I need you and I didn't realize how much I would need you until you were gone..and I was never miserable with you, you were the one thing changing everything when it was dark fo me, and imma always love you. Word to."

He ranted and the whole time, I felt like he was being genuine.

I just crawled into his arms and laid there, I didn't know what to say, or how to tell him I forgive him.

"Do you forgive me?" I asked.

"Yes ma....now please let's ask each other before we do anything, aight?"

We giggled s little bit and cuddled until we feel asleep

(Is this better??? Lmk. I jus got my nails done so if there's typos, ignore em