Secrets (Rengiyuu)

Chapter 4

I know it's been a while but I can atone to it by telling you all that chapter 5 will be coming soon after this chapter. Now onto the story.

Underlines = Everyone else
Slanted = either Tomioka or Kyojuro depending on the POV.
[Tomioka POV = Rengoku slanted
Kyojuro POV = Tomioka slanted]

(Tomioka POV)

I looked at him worry and concerne. I want to ask him questions but I don't want to seem nosy. I decided to let it go since he seemed uneasy. "I'm sorry if I made you uncomforable in any way." I said. He sat down on his bed and looked into my eyes as he smiled again. "It's fine! There is no need to apoligize!"

Had I made him upset? Was he wishing I were gone? Or was I being too nosy and curious? So many questions floded my mind as I spaced-out. I think Kyojuro realized because he then called my name in a soft and deep tone of voice. I got caught off guard and I looked at him surprised. "What would you like to do while your still here?"

thought of the question for a bit. What should I do with him? My mind instantly thought of something I wouldn't dare do with anyone. Why am I even thinking of that anyway?! I mean I do kinda- No-No, no, no. Why the hell am I thinking of stuff like that?! "So what do you want to do-?"

I instantaneously snapped back into reality. While thinking of the question he then asked me a question. "I know you're trying to think of what to do but do you enjoy being here?" I was taken aback by the question. Of course I did. I loved being with him. After all, him and Kocho are the only people who actually talk to me. So why wouldn't I?

"Of course I do. I enjoy your compainy. Althought I must ask you a question of the same subject. Why do you like talking to me? Why are you always trying to make me socialize wirth others? No one else does those things for me. So why do you?" He smiled sweetly, I felt butterfly's in my stomach. He looked so cute and innocent.

"It's beacause I like being friends with you"  I stood there silently. Oh yea.. We're just friends.. He doesn't like me in that way. We aren't a couple.. I'm pretty sure he realized I got upset. I didn't mean to make him think I didn't want to be friends of course. "I'm happy to be friends with you Ren" I could feel him get hurt too, perhaps he liked me? No, no one would. Just because he likes being friends doesn't mean he wants to date.

But at the same time I saw him smile and blush when I called him Ren Perhaps he liked the nickname. I was happy he was no longer so uncomfortble from what happened between his father and him.

But I just wished I could just hug him and kiss him. Even though we are not together I wish we were. 
 
(Rengoku's POV)

I felt a little bothered when Tomioka called me his friend, sure I am glad to be something to him.. But I want to be more. More than just his friend, I want to be his partner, the one who makes him pancakes in the morning. The partner he would hug while crying because he had a bad day. The one he would love. The one he would get excited once he sees me.

The one he would love and never lie to. I might be asking for a bit much but I don't care as long as he is happy with whatever he has. "So, would you like to do anything in spescific or if you don't have and idea of what to do I'll think of one." He thought of it for a bit before answering my question. "I don't mind what we do. As long as I get to be with you." He said the last phrase too fast for me to comprehend so I asked him to repeat himself but he said it was apparently nothing. All I heard really was with you.

I smiled then offered him an option of things to do. "We could cook, bake, watch kabuki and noh plays, watch sumo or play shogi. I knew he liked playing shogi because he played it once with young Kamado. I'm not too good in it though. "Could we play Shogi?" He said in a happy tone.

A while later after we had played shogi for a couples of hours I finally won a round with Senjuro's help. Senjuro helped explain the game since I didn't really ever play it before. "Well, I think I better get going now. It's getting late" I didn't want him to leave so out of nowhere I yelled his name. "Tomioka wait!"

I froze after screaming his name. "Uhm.. Could you stay.. the night again..?" "Brother he can't just stay for two days." Senjuro made me realize that in fact Tomioka could not. "I mean if you want me to. Then of cours I can" He said as looked away blushing I think.

"Really? Are you sure?" He sat back down. "As long as I can borrow your clothes" I chuckled a bit. "Of course you can!" I think my brother had now realized my feelings towards Tomioka since I was blushing. He then asked to talk to me in private.

"Do you like him?" He asked straight away. "I uhm.. Yea.." He hugged me. "I'm happy for you!" I hugged him back and we stayed like that for a few minutes as Tomioka was changing. "It's obvious you haven't told him yet but do you think he likes you?" "I don't think so, he doesn't really like the idea of relationships."

"I see.. Well don't miss your chance of asking him out!" I laughed as I watched Senjuro go back to his room. I knocked on the door before asking Tomioka if I could come in, I didn't hear anything so I decided to come in. I oppened my door to enter my room to see Tomioka...

To be continued...