I wish I pull love someone. Some people say I just haven't found the right person yet. But that's not true. I just can't love, and I hate it. I fantasize of one day having a lover but it's only just me and somebody fake or nothing in the fantasy. It makes no sense how most people can love and I can't. Am I cursed to not love or something? Do other people love me? Do other people have fantasies about me? So many questions that I'll never get the answers to.
-lychen
