LoveJoy Songs

Privately Owned Spiral Galaxy

Thought cycle gusty, a mind filled with hot air
Must I care for nothing more than myself?
Do I dare admit the fraught thoughts cavorting?
Resorting in inner-directed mourning

For the part of me that was selfless, that left without a warning

Well, that's what I said, but maybe it's the fact that I detest

This obsession with myself that leaves a mess inside my head

Oh shit, I'm doing it again, repelling any potential friend

Revealing my innate ability to never fully comprehend

Anything bigger than myself, but in the end I still pretend

Condescend anyone polite enough to choose to misspend their time

Watching me as I achieve my secret social mission

To drain people with my boring stories and opinions

To see the bigger picture takes intelligence and wisdom

But I won't see nothing with just myself in my vision

I go outside; a blitz of faces unwilling to confess to any empathy

Endlessly, incessantly declining any pleasantries

Heavily breathing, socially teething, I'm open like a vivisection

Intense tendency to dwell, seething over misconnections

Infected by my perceptions that I'm a non-entity

Project my insecurity until intensity is weaponry
Grieving a heavenly fiction I perceived whilst I was dreaming

Awake, freezing, wheezing, fundamentally I'm still believing that

This is an elegy for concepts I conceived in deep sleep

As I helplessly watch them fade whilst I awake, I try and keep them alive

Incomparable with life, but eventually they die
And the brain I used to cultivate reveals my lovers were a lie

But when inside my mind, I find a way to replicate reality

Through lucid dreaming, I decimate the limitations of actuality

Capacity practically eternal, mortality external
No God, but I investigate the blasphemous worship of the nocturnal

Internally existing without morality
Creates profanities without the travesty
And compared to the apathy of realness, I reveal my own insanity

The majesty of fantasy protects me from tragedy

Normality's effects traject the agony of rationality

Which thankfully penetrates with no avail to my unreality

An elaborately designed privately owned spiral galaxy

Financially, I'm failing
Naturally decaying

Soon I'll have no place safe to sleep if these bills still need paying

Displaying cravings with open eyes for something mind-expanding

When I drift away, I see the totality of understanding