I am trying so hard to handle the guilt, I really am.
I know it's my fault, I know what I did.
But I'm still sensitive, it still hurts so much.
I will still cry over the outcome.
I will still miss you.
I will always ache for you and your forgiveness no matter how much I don't deserve it.
I can never forgive my own self, and I deserve to feel the pain that I do.
Yet, I can't help but wish I could have comfort.
I don't know what to do with myself.
