Are we meant to be?

CHAPTER EIGHT

We start to walk along the path, rocks spread all over it, making our moves crunch with every step.

The sun is slowly setting, even tho it's only the evening but because of the season being winter, it's starting to get dark earlier.

The birds singing and chirping are perfect for the comforting atmosphere.

My arm is sitting around her shoulder, one of hers is curling around my waist.

„I was thinking about maybe, I don't know, trying out some dating apps," Elizabeth says out of nowhere.

I pause.

„Wh-What?" I stutter.

„You heard me," she looks up at me.

„Yeah, I did, but why,why would you need to go on dating apps?" I force out.

„Because I think it's time for me to finally get a boyfriend," she tells me.

„But why now?" I ask.

„I need someone to be here for me," she shyly says.

„And I'm not?" I snap, not believing she thinks I'm not here for her.

„But only as a friend, and I need more then that," She loudly says.

„I am trying, I'm trying so hard to just be your damn friend, I really am" I say, fully turning to her.

„Then be it, be my damn friend," She snaps back.

„I don't think I can just be your friend anymore," I almost scream.

„Why not?" I can hear the despair in her voice, it's the same one I hear in mine.

„Because that's what I've been trying our whole friendship, I've tried just being your friend, I've tried so hard not to want more, not to feel more, but it's just not working anymore!

The thought of you and someone else is just not fitting in my head," She tries to say something but I hold up my hand, desperate to get all of it out, everything what I've been feeling for years, not wanting to keep it inside me anymore.
„I can't think clearly around you, I want to be with you every time, every day," I continue, „I want to fall asleep next to you and wake up with you in my arms."

„I need you in my life, but not just as a friend, because th-that won't just do it anymore, I want everything with you Elizabeth Torres, but I want to do everything with you as your boyfriend, and I can't - and I don't even want to - imagine your boyfriend as someone else, I want to be your boyfriend your only boyfriend."

„You need to understand that I've wanted you my whole life, Lizzy, I've wanted you since we've been kids, damnit," I stop for a second to take a deep breath before I continue.

„I know I kissed other girls in my life, but nothing more happened, because those girls didn't give me the same feeling as you, they don't make me feel safe, heard or seen and, Liz, you make me feel so seen. I've never felt more appreciated as when I'm with you.

And I can't think about anyone else kissing you for the first time, because I want the be your first everything, I want to be your first kiss, I want to be your first time, I want to take you out for real dates, I want everything with you," Breathless, I walk to her, desperate to touch her in any way, placing my hands on her cheeks.

„But I need you to want it too, I can't be the only one.
I couldn't just have imagined all of this, how you blush every time I kiss you on the forehead, or when I give you a compliment, or how you let your body fall against me when I pull you close.
Please tell me that it wasn't just in my head, please," I let my forehead fall against hers, feeling her breath against my lips.

„You didn't," she whispers, „I want you too, wanted you my whole life, I have just been so scared to admit it, scared that you won't feel the same, I need you, I can't live without you, and I don't want anyone else as my boyfriend, I need you as my boyfriend, I couldn't even imagine anyone else as my boyfriend, because I could never want someone else Jaxon Reed," she breathes out, „I have waited for you so long, I didn't want anyone else to be my first kiss or my first time, I want it to be you, just you."

„I want you, Jax."

I always wanted you, and I will always want you," she finishes, while the sun is shining on us.

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