Confidence Boost? // SOUTH PARK HIGHSCHOOL FIC

CHAPTER 3 ; All alone.

AUTHOR NOTE:

- Same TWs as chapter 1!

"Yknow what? Sure. It'll be funny to see you embarrassed when I tell you when you're sober."
Oh god. Why did I say yes! I have a boyfriend! And I don't even like Nichole in that way. I mean I don't even like Eric anymore but WHAT WAS I THINKING??

I smile at her with a laugh.
IM SO STUPID!

"Yeah, well... I'm not gonna remember this tomorrow anyway."
Nichole smiles at me and pushes herself up on my body. I notice she's moving closer and closer to my face. She is about and inch away from my face now..

"You probably won't, I'm gonna have to carry you home bridal style."
I can smell the alcohol on Nichole's breath. It was disgusting.

There's no point denying it anymore and she moves her lips to mine and kisses me. She's drunk so she's a bit sloppy. It surprises me a little bit as I lean back uncomfortably, regretting it. The kiss becomes more passionate as she presses against me.
This was such a bad idea... WHY COULDN'T I JUST SAY NO?

I start to push her off me a bit.
"Okay, okay, your drunken majesty. Don't get too carried away."
She may be my friend, but I should have said no! Ughh!

That's when I notice people staring at us. Just great.
Oh god what if they told Eric?!

Nichole looks surprised and embarrassed for a moment, then she starts giggling and leans in to kiss me again. "Oh come on, don't be like that."
Say no! Say no! Come on Heidi, don't be a shy loser.

I look up and see a lot of the people at the party staring at the two of us. I notice Red with the group of guys looking at me as well, she seems very interested in what is going on with me and Nichole. She looked oddly jealous too? She stares at me, annoyed, and mouths "what the hell".

I turn my attention back at Nichole.
"Nichole, I'm not letting you go too far. You are too drunk right now, and being drunk is not consent. A kiss is fine but anything more than that would be me taking advantage of a drunk person, which I do not want to do."
Why did I have to be so nice about it...
I stare back at Red, mouthing 'What?' back at her in confusion.

"But I'm not THAT drunk! Okay, ok. Just let me kiss you again." Nichole tries to kiss me again as I uncomfortably push her away.

Red sees me looking at her and shrugs her shoulders dismissively, looking away and pouting.

I sigh.
"Come on, Nichole, I think Red is mad at me."
I stand up, bringing Nichole with me. I walk over to Red and look at her in confusion.
"What's up Red?"

Red is sitting on one of the guy's lap, her head on his chest and her hands around his neck. She looks at me as I walk over and smiles. "Hi Heidi, what do you want?"
Does she also have memory loss?

I notice that another guy is staring at Nichole, looking pretty interested in her. Weirdo.

"Red... are you jealous?"
I stare at Red in confusion.
"You seemed really upset with Nichole kissing me."

Red smiles at me and shrugs her shoulders a bit. "Yeah, I'm a bit jealous. I thought you liked me. Nichole's trying to steal you from me." she laughs.

The guy now has his arm around Nichole and he's flirting with her right in front of me. Great.

"Red, you've been flirting with guys all night, why would I think you were into me?"
I turn my attention to Nichole, making sure she's okay with this guy flirting with her. I really didn't want Nichole to ditch me for him, but who am I to get mad at her?

"I don't know, I really didn't think I'd have to worry about you two..."
I look over at Nichole again, she's smiling at the guy and flirting. The guy is laughing and flirting heavily back with her, she doesn't seem to mind at all. He reaches out and touches her hair and she leans into his hand, it seems to make her smile. He's looking at her with this heavy interest, like he doesn't want to take his eyes off her.
I have officially lost my party partner. Great!

I get a bit upset with Nichole ditching me, walking away with my eyes watery. I hate being alone.
"Just leave me alone then, I guess."
I go out onto the back porch and sit on the steps, thinking to myself.
Why did I come to this stupid party? All it's done is make me more insecure on the inside.

Red and her guy are flirting very vigorously with each other now. She looks a bit out of it but seems to be more relaxed now that I left. She touches his arm and he pulls her closer to him.

Nichole is sat on the other guy's lap and he's touching her hair and her waist. She's giggling and looking up at him, she seems to be completely lost in the moment and not paying attention to anything else. The guy looks at her like he's in love and is completely enamored with her.

They both get guys they are flirting with and I'm left alone. I feel like crying.
Here I am, sitting on the back porch, head in my knees. I wish I never agreed to come here. All I've done is beat up a bunch of guys and shit. I just lost my party partner, everyone's drunk, this is a complete hell hole. I haven't seen any of the girls other than Red and Nichole since the beginning of the party. Just great, why can't I learn to say no without being a shy loser or beating someone up? I'm such a pussy...