DIARY OF AN ADOLESCENT

April 3, 2023

April 3, 2023
Monday
3:59 P.M.

Dear Diary,

I didn't know if it turned out to be a diary or a dialogue. I really stink at expressing myself. But these conversations below somehow settled everything.

Luke I'll see you around 4 pm sa gawas sa gate sa ginahulatan pag manakayan. There's something I want to give you. After di nako mag chat magbeg sa attention nimo either disturbuhon ka. If ever di ka moadto it's still ok, I'll just crumple it, tear it, and throw it away. But I still hope nga tan awon nimo og basahon. -best friend-

Naa ko karon sa balay nila Stephanie. Maghulat ko, mag istorya ta nga kung unsa ta mag communicate dati, there's no problem at all. Sadyang busy lang ko these days, sorry kung di kaayo ko maka reply. I replied.

I'm good at reasoning but I know I'm so boring. HAHAHA. But let's continue this.

Around 4 pm we finally met. I started the conversations and acted as usual but I really felt awkward. I hope it was all a dream but it was so real.

She gave me a notebook. I didn't know what was inside of it but I accepted it. Then she borrowed my phone and used my facebook account to chat with herself.

Sorry (her name) best friend rajud mahatag nako saimo, dli taka crush same sa pagka crush nimo sa ako. -best friend-

I have no intention to say it to her because I don't want her to feel hurt but I was shocked when she used my account to say it to herself.

Then she decided to go home. I waited for her to get a pedicab and after she left. I also went home.

The conversations continued when I arrived at home.

She replied to herself "nasakitan ko".

I replied to her that we should focus on our studies and told her that feelings are temporary.

Depende Luke, it's the same with the very significant events that occurred in your life nga di nimo malimtan. Kay kung babaw lang na nga feelings possible jud nga temporary lang siya tapos dali lang sad nimo malimtan. -best friend-

Sorry kaayo (her name) kung napa feel nako sa imo nga mali imong feelings. Gusto lang nako iingon sa imo nga you are important to me. And dli sa ta mag focus ana karon, sunod nana in the right time. I replied.

Oum, I understand Luke. I will just pray na magiging ok nako after all I've done, after letting out my feelings. She replied.

Then I ended the conversation.

Luke