I only got 4 week before I'm officially out of school and I'm working my ass off. After high school all I want to do is just be with my son and make him happy. So in order for me to make me more successful Ima go to college just so I can make more when I graduate.
I called Jay to tell him that I stayed an extra hour after school so I can study my finals.
"Hey gurl." I heard a very familiar voice. It was Jackie.
"Oh hey what you doin here I that you left?"
"Well I figured that you would be here studying so I thought it was good if I would to." Well this is the first she actually wanted to study. But I'm already leaving.
"So how's my god baby Major?"
"Girl bad as ever." we both laughed.
"Ima come by and see him. I really miss him."
"Gurl you know damn well you can see him whenever you want."
We left and drove to Jays apartment. I really needed to go today so I don't get distracted by him. Even though he still need help with a few things I have to go.
I opened the door letting Jackie in. Major is sleep in the couch but we heard talking and laughing coming from the room.
"Who is he talking to?" Jackie said.
"I don't know but we gon find out." We started walking slowly towards the room. I put my ear on the door and listen to their conversation.
JAY
Röyal is at school and I put Major to sleep. I heard a knock at the door. It was some girl that I don't know. Every since the shooting I don't remember at lot of things. I opened the door.
The girl was thick as fuck. She was darkskin with long hair. She was bad but not as much as Röyal.
"Hey uh wassup?." I said confused.
"Well I heard that you got shot a few days ago and you don't remember a whole lot of people. So I came by to refresh yo memory." She smiled at me and let herself in.
I shrugged my shoulders. I went and sat down next to her. "So...." I said looking at her.
"Oh my bad. Let me re-introduce myself" she laughed. "My name is Kalana. We were together for as long as I can remember. Then you found Royal and uh..." she trailed off with watery eyes. "You left me for her and I still don't understand why." She started to really cry.
She ran upstairs to the bathroom to wipe her face from her runny eye liner. I sighed and walked with this lady or supposingly my ex girlfriend.
I push the door open gently and sighed.
"So why did you really come here? To cry and expect me to take you back?" I asked with all seriousness.
She shook her head. "No I just wanted you to realize that I gave you everything. You told me you didn't want kids and you have a child with her? Look I know...I know you don't remember but I need for you to love me again!" She pushed me backwards til we made it to the master bedroom. She took her shirt off and took mine off too.
She started to caress my body as we kissed roughly. I wanted so bad to stop it but it felt really good to be kissing someone else besides Royal. If that sounds right.
I ended up thinking about it and stopped her. "Stop." I gently pushed her over. "I love Royal and my son. I can't do that. It was fun while it lasted though." I laughed.
"Yeah. I just wanted to kiss you again. One more time. It tasted like Krispy Kreme donuts though." She wiped her mouth and laughed and so did I.
I picked my shirt up while we were still laughing. "I mean I had a couple of them earlier but shit I didn't know they-" the door cut me off when it flew open and there stood Royal and Jackie.
"Oh. So you decided I wasn't here and this is the fucking activity you choose to do? Who is she?" She just stood there and wasn't even loud. She was calm as hell actually.
"Babe it ain't even like that. She came over to remind me of how we met."
"In the master Jay?" She looked down and chuckled to herself. "I'm out. Both of you motherfuckers love each other." I looked at her like she was crazy. I grabbed her arm but she snatched away and headed to the door.
"Oh and you keep Major til' I find a place for me and my baby boy to stay." She slammed the door and I hear her car drive off. I know I fucked up now.
"You gotta go. I'll see you when I see you." I showed her the door and she left. I just need to find a way to make this up to Royal.
Royal
I couldn't believe Jay. After the shit we just went through and he turns around to do this? I don't deserve it. Not at all.
I didn't have anywhere to go so I went to my mom's house tonight. I forgot she left for vacation. I took Jackie home. We rode in silence. I didn't feel like talking.
I stopped by Wing Stop and grabbed some food and headed there. My song Passenger by Ziggy came on and I blasted it through my speakers.
After arriving at my moms I changed clothes and put on some of Jay's clean boxers that were left here from long ago. I put on a sports bra and went to eat. After eating I fell asleep in a deep sleep.
I walked through the door of my mom's house and turned it to the news as I ate my food. I heard Jay's name and his picture popped up as the reporter was saying that he was in a fatal car crash that killed two others and an toddler.
I prayed they weren't talking about my baby Major. "The toddler was known to be Major Johnson. Paramedics suspect that when the other vehicle was coming towards Mr. Johnson and the toddler, the baby wasn't strapped in and went through the windshield."
I screamed to the top of my lungs hoping this wasn't true. All I could do was cry. I couldn't even eat. I got up and started throwing stuff.
My phone was ringing non stop but I threw that too. I didn't think my boys would go so soon. I heard the reporter say something that set me off the top.
"Police has identified the faulted driver as Courtney Wright and from the looks of it, it was a crash done on purpose. I'm Rain Miller here on Fox 6 News, Ashley back to you." Suddenly my body got hot and I started thowing things that could kill my ass in here.
But whats the point of living if everyone you love loses their life right? I remembered I kept a gun in my suitcase under the bed. I ran upstairs and grabbed it.
I said a prayer to God and told him to watch over the rest of my family. I pointed the gun to my chest. I closed my eyes and pulled the trigger.
I woke up sweating and screaming. I looked at my phone to see it was 11:49 pm. I heard a gun shot outside and sighed. I went up to my room and got under the covers. I knew I couldn't go back to sleep after that dream so I text Jay and told him I was coming over.
I can't be alone. I just want to hold my baby Major right now.
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