Maybe today is the day that I have finally realised my worth that am definitely more than the girl people blame everything on for nothing at all, am not that little girl anymore who love's everyone from the bottom of her heart but ends up getting hurt over and over again making her question herself what did she do to deserve all of this pain? Maybe today is the day it all came cleared for me ,maybe I knew this before but today is the day I have finally accepted it that there is no such thing for me as "we" and all I have for myself is me all alone trying to be my own light all alone trying to win those ME VS ME and ME VS THE WORLD Fights.
Maybe today is the day I'm finally giving up on the people that I love and for once excepting myself and stop being the loving and caring dove.
The Heaven saw it all the angels sings the songs how that little girl fights all of her silent and secrets battles all alone, how she tries to pick up the pieces of her broken self one by one all nights long, I know there is a way of ending the pain and my life but day by day am realising that I gotta survive no not for the people that I love not because I don't want to see their tears but because I know that the heaven prays for me to the God to help me fight all of my unknown fears.
Maybe that is why today I realised that loving people will always gonna make you cry, but trust me when I say with the right people in your life there will no such colour as the colour grey, your fights will be theirs and not only they will fight for you but with you they will also pray, the right people will never let you down and let you all alone die from the inside with them you will feel alive with a real smile the happiness will be seen sparkling in your eyes, they will give you their shoulder to lean on and put their arms around you while you cry.
Maybe oneday you will realise why all of the people you have loved from the bottom of your heart in the end made you cry.
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