kiss me

capitolo 7 "TRAUMA"

X: ti prego... ricordati di me.

mi sveglio di botto piangendo.

mattheo: Denise calmati era solo un brutto sogno.

io: mattheo dov'è Sofia?tu che ci fai qua?

Sofia e con Draco, non ti voglio lasciare sola.

io: non mi mangiano Theo.

Mattheo: e se ti mangiassi io?

io: beh... tu potresti.

mattheo: potrei?

dice mentre mi bacia il collo.

io: mattheo fai piano.

io: Mattheo fai piano.

Mattheo: E se non volessi?

Dice mentre mi morde di più.

Io: T-theo...ho bisogno di te...

Mattheo: Anch'io ho bisogno di te.

Mi spoglia mentre mi bacia.

scende sempre più giù.

qualcuno bussa alla porta.

mattheo: ma stra dio cane.

Harry: DENISEE SBRICATII DOBBIAMO ANDARE.

io: si aspetta mi sto vestendo.

io: Theo devo andare.

Mattheo: perchee per favore.

io: vieni con me.

Mattheo: va bene.

mi bacia ancora il collo

io: THEOO.

mattheo: va bene, scusami principessa.

usciamo dalla stanza.

Hermione: Denise vieni ti devo dire una cosa.

io: dimmi.

Hermione: hai un succhiotto nel collo.

io: oh cazzo.

Hermione: Harry se ne accorto.

Hermione: lui e riddle non vanno tanto d'accordo.

io: andiamo non abbiamo tempo per coprirlo.

io: mattheo guarda il mio collo.

gli dico molto piano.

mattheo: è il mio marchio.

mi dice sorridendo.

io: cretino.

lo bacio.

Harry sembrava infastidito.

non gli do molta importanza.

Harry: Denise ti devo parlare, vieni.

io: dimmi.

harry: MA SEI DEFICENTE?

io: per favore non gridare harry.

Harry :HAI PORTATO IL FIGLIO DI VOLDEMORT A DARCI UNA MANO.

io: Harry non gridare.

mattheo: qual'e il tuo problema Harry?

Harry: FATTI I CAZZI TUOI.

non ho visto più niente, vedevo tutto sfocato.

e di botto avevo di nuovo nove anni

seduta nel pavimento del bagno sentendo le grida dei miei "genitori" prima di torturarmi.

si sfogavano su di me.

ha cominciato a farlo anche mio "fratello".

ho ancora gli incubi.

ma non sono incubi.

sono ricordi, ho ancora dei segni nel corpo.

ancora sento le loro grida.

Hermione: Denise tutto ok?

io: no, cioè si ma voglio andarmene.

corro per i corridoi, decido di mettermi un po' di musica con le cuffie.

I kinda wanna throw my phone across the room
'Cause all I see are girls too good to be true
With paper-white teeth and perfect bodies
Wish I didn't care

I know their beauty's not my lack
But it feels like that weight is on my back
And I can't let it go

Co-comparison is killing me slowly
I think, I think too much
'Bout kids who don't know me
I'm so sick of myself
I'd rather be, rather be
Anyone, anyone else
My jealousy, jealousy
Started following me (he-he-he, he-he)
Started following me (he-he-he, he-he)

And I see everyone getting all the things I want
And I'm happy for them, but then again, I'm not
Just cool vintage clothes and vacation photos
I can't stand it, oh, God, I sound crazy

Their win is not my loss
I know it's true
But I can't help getting caught up in it all

Co-co-comparison is killing me slowly
I think, I think too much
'Bout kids who don't know me
I'm so sick of myself
I'd rather be, rather be
Anyone, anyone else
My jealousy, jealousy (yeah)

All your friends are so cool, you go out every night
In your daddy's nice car, yeah, you're living the life
Got a pretty face, a pretty boyfriend too
I wanna be you so bad, and I don't even know you
All I see is what I should be
Happier, prettier, jealousy, jealousy
All I see is what I should be
I'm losing it, all I get's, jealousy, jealousy

Co-comparison is killing me slowly
I think, I think too much
'Bout kids who don't know me
And I'm so sick of myself
I'd rather be, rather be (oh, oh)
Anyone, anyone else (anybody else)
Jealousy, jealousy

mentre che guardo le ragazze perfette.

magre, naso perfetto, capelli lisci.

parte un altra canzone

Ooh-ooh-ooh
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah
Brown guilty eyes and little white lies
Yeah, I played dumb but I always knew
That you'd talk to her, maybe did even worse
I kept quiet so I could keep you
And ain't it funny
How you ran to her
The second that we called it quits?
And ain't it funny
How you said you were friends?
Now it sure as hell don't look like it
You betrayed me
And I know that you'll never feel sorry
For the way I hurt, yeah
You'd talk to her
When we were together
Loved you at your worst
But that didn't matter
It took you two weeks
To go off and date her
Guess you didn't cheat
But you're still a traitor
Now you bring her around
Just to shut me down
Show her off like she's a new trophy
And I know if you were true
There's no damn way that you
Could fall in love with somebody that quickly
Ain't it funny
All the twisted games
All the questions you used to avoid?
Ain't it funny?
Remember I brought her up
And you told me I was paranoid
You betrayed me
And I know that you'll never feel sorry
For the way I hurt, yeah
You'd talk to her
When we were together
Loved you at your worst
But that didn't matter
It took you two weeks
To go off and date her
Guess you didn't cheat
But you're still a traitor
God, I wish that you had thought this through
Before I went and fell in love with you
(Ah-ah-ah)
When she's sleeping in the bed we made
Don't you dare forget about the way
You betrayed me
'Cause I know that you'll never feel sorry
For the way I hurt, yeah
You'd talk to her
When we were together
You gave me your word
But that didn't matter
It took you two weeks
To go off and date her
Guess you didn't cheat
But you're still
You're still a traitor (ah-ah-ah)
Yeah, you're still a traitor
Ooh-ooh-ooh
God, I wish that you had thought this through
Before I went and fell in love with you.

chi ti ha mai amato davvero Denise?