Kylian POV
Training has become a lot harder since we lost to Real Madrid in the champions league.
More pressure has been put on my back, because I missed the winning penalty
"If Mbappe misses this, it's technically all over for PSG here"
I got a penalty on the 89th minute 1-0 and Madrid are winning..
If I get this I can make it go to extra time and there is a chance we will still win..
I kiss the ball and set it down, as I get ready to kick the ball I take a long breath..
I run up and kick the ball and I hit the post...
Shit, shit, shit, shit... SHIT, I MISSED THE PENALTY..
the bell rings to say that it's over and I collapse on to my knees..
I've trained extra hard and hate comments on TikTok and Instagram make things worse..
I've gone to a therapist and they've diagnosed me with depression.. so that's amazing!
I don't sleep most nights because I replay the moment I missed in my head over and over seeing what I could've done to not miss..
"KYLIAN MBAPPE LOTTIN"
I shake my head waking up from my thoughts and focusing on the person who said my name..
And of course it is my Best friend Achraf Hakimi
"Yeah?" I smile at him
"You alright?" He asks genuinely concerned
"Yeah.. I'm.. I'm all good"
I look over at my other teammates and see Messi and Neymar together, laughing and smiling, having an awesome time.
I'm happy that Ney has found someone to be happy with, since I failed doing that as well
"KYLIAN I HONESTLY DONT KNOW HOW YOU MISSED THAT!" Neymar yelled at me when the final whistle blew
"I'm sorry.." I cry in my hands knowing that I let the whole team down
"I can't with this.." Neymar says and storms off
He looks over at me and he stares back curiously and staring into those green but also brown eyes, just makes me think about the times we spent together..
