Today was the last day of winter break I felt that only yesterday i was coming home to paris i was staying with my aunt here since my parents went on a ski trip and they didn't invite me cause they wanted some 'alone time' as if they hadn't had alone time while i was away
I was in my room packing for tomorrow i went to my desk and grabbed all of my pens and papers i put Mattheo's letters to the side so I could put them away from my other letters Mattheo and I have been sending each other letters all winter long. I originally asked mattheo if he wanted to come with me to paris but he said he had duties over the winter He didn't tell me what it was and I didn't question him
As i was putting my books away i heard a tap on my window i turned my head to the window confused what made the noise then a small pebble hit my window again. I jumped when another came i slowly walked to the window opening it and sticking my head out where i saw mattheo standing outside of the house "what are you doing here?" I said looking down at him "i just needed to see you my love" i blushed and smiled although he looked kinda distressed his hair was messed up and his clothes were also messed up
"Wait there" i said as i pulled my head out the window and rushed to get my cardigan i went downstairs to the front door and opened it to be met with mattheo leaning against the door frame his nose bloody he had a few cuts on his face "oh my god" i said as i quickly cupped his face "what the heck happened?" I asked him and examined his face
He just looked at me and I could see a small tear forming in his eyes but before it could run down his face he turned away from me and sighed "mattheo" i said trying to get him to answer me "mattheo look at me" i said grabbing his arm and turning him back to me "what happened?" I cupped his face but he kept looking down
"My love please..." and he finally looked up at me i could tell that he was holding his tears back , he never was one to cry in front of people , he held my hand and leaned his head against it then slowly put it away from his face "im so sorry darling" he said looking me in the eyes before finally breaking down i have never seen him break down i mean ive seen him cry before but not this much he kept whispering how sorry he was and that he loved me
He buried his head on my neck and hugged me tightly "what happened?" U asked as I hugged him back he shook his head and cried more into my shoulder "mattheo please... Tell me"
He finally calmed himself down and looked at me again then he screamed and held his wrist to his chest at that moment i knew what had happened i mediately held him as he continued to scream i could feel myself starting to cry
"I'm so sorry" he whispered to me crying "shhhh" i said to him as i ran my fingers to his hair and kissed his head "its okay"
Later after we both stopped crying we went inside and we both sat on my bedroom floor just holding each other l told him that he should go take a shower to wash off the blood i couldnt even imagine where the blood came from
After he took a shower he came out wearing a black hoodie we didnt talk much that night we just lay down on my bed and fell asleep holding each other tightly
The next morning when i woke up he was nowhere to be found i looked around the house and there was no sign of him i asked my aunt if she had seen him but she said she didn't even know he was here when i went back to my room and started to get ready to go to the station but all i could think about why didnt mattheo say goodbye he always says goodbye if he needs to leave early
As i started to put my jacket on when i looked at my bag and saw it was slightly open i swear i had closed it last night i walked over and closed it up and went back to getting ready but something in me was saying to open the bag again i tried to ignore it and kept getting ready but it got me and i opened the bag where i found a small letter inside
I opened it and immediately recognized Mattheo's letter it only wrote a few words but it sent me to tears the moment i read it
"𝐈𝐦 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐦𝐲 𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮"
