If Only ➼ larry stylinson

28. How it ends

Louis looked up from Harry's old journal.

That was the last entry.

A single tear slid down his cheek.

Why would Harry ever think that he wasn't enough for him? Louis was sure that he told him everyday.

Maybe it was the constant arguing...

But even those were resolved.

...

Maybe he thought they were. Harry was more sensitive than him. He feels horrible.

He feels stupid that he couldn't cry at his funeral. He feels dumb for not seeing the way Harry felt. He feels...

He feels foolish.

He feels foolish that he couldn't have been there for Harry, but now Harry was gone.

He feels lost without him.

He misses Harry.

Harry was his everything.

His sunshine, his love, his beautiful crush.

It's always a regret that he never got to tell Harry the way he really felt.