Between us

Chapter one- Silas

Oxygen wasnt enough for me to breathe. I needed more...I needed her. Tears aren't even fLowing now.
It stopped.
Everything stopped.

I didn't move my eyes from her Polaroid not for a second. The only thing I could do was questioning myself.
What did I do to deserve this?.. Why would you do that, Eva?. Why would you leave me like this?
All the moments, all the memories we created were now disappearing from my mind into a small wooden box.

The every 'You are perfect' the every 'Im there for you' the every 'I love you' was locking themselves in that wooden box. Which I ain't gonna open for any other girl. I sighed and turned around to an unfamiliar voice which sounded like it was coated in honey. I looked up to see a woman in black suit. She had sea green eyes with Caramel blonde strips on her dark brown hair which reached till her waist.

"uh...Excuse me?" Her voice snapped me out of my thoughts and I pushed myself aside to give her some space. She bowed as thanks and sat next to me. I shifted my focus on Eva's polaroid. It was pulling me in the dark again like it did before Eva showed up in my life. She wasn't a light to my darkness. She was my Bright darkness.
She surely held my hand but failed to pull me out of it. Instead she made herself comfortable in my darkness with that flashlight-like smile.
We sat. We talked. We played. We lived. But we couldn't stay together because after all it was darkness there and her flashlight got dim day by day.
Because I forgot that she was claustrophobic- She was afraid of the dark...

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Apple juice isn't my favorite anymore. It never was.
I threw the empty Frappe of the Last apple juice I drank. It was my last...

I heard footsteps approaching me and wondered who was going to apologize to me now?. I didn't turn around and kept looking at the empty Frappe.
They come. They apologize. They leave.
And that's what is going to happen.
They will come. They will apologize. They will leave.
I sighed when I felt a strong grip on my shoulder which was surprisingly comfortable.
"I'm sorry dude." I quickly turned around only to find Evans staring down at me with tears in his eyes.
I hugged him.
I never do.
But I did.
"No, I'm sorry. I couldn't save her." My voice cracked due to a weird sensation in my throat. He rubbed my back and pulled away.
"It's not your fault Silas. It was written. It had to be like this." I shook my head while looking down. "It's not your fault."
I couldn't save her. I was being selfish. I was so lost in healing myself that I didn't notice she was drowning in my darkness too and I only focused on healing myself.
It's my fault.
"Evans." I looked behind him to find the same girl from earlier.
Yes, the caramel one..
"I'm leaving." She said while looking at me showing that she remembers me. Evans nods and then he also looks at me..
"Silas meet Raven, Eva's childhood friend." I don't remember Eva talking about a childhood friend...because I was just focused on myself.
She lifts her hand forward for a shake hand.
"And he is Silas, Eva's boyfriend."
I just looked at her pale white hand and then I looked at her sea green eyes. Which only fakes a smile.
She just takes her hand back in embarrassment and looks at Evans. Making him look at me.
"See you then, Raven" He says without looking at her but at me. He takes me by my arms and starts walking away from Eva's funeral.