this "story". is based on my fanfictions "Old royals", "Old Royals 2", "Old Royals 3".
Since the story ended, I am writing these one shots, updates and else.
Hope you like this!
read Old Royals 1, 2 and 3 before reading this!
This was Lisa's post that Sunday. The two girls posted this photo and kept having their day, until the evening.
Vera was already asleep in their big bed, while Lisa, at 01:42am, was scrolling through the comments.
@jaghetersara : is it just me or lisa looks kinda fat
@matildahluvz_ : lisa you should get a bit skinnier
@lalalovedby : lisa wtf do u eat
Most of the comments looked like that. Lisa already didn't like her body, she always hated it even if on the outside she looked perfectly fine.
When she and Vera were at Hillerska, she told her girlfriend about this problem of hers, and Vera kept reassuring her that her body was actually perfect and there was nothing wrong with it, that she didn't look like a pig or whatever.
Lisa thought that on the outside she looked too skinny, her body was flat, but if she looked at her belly (not through photos) she would think she was actually fat.
Vera never understood this behavior, since she really thought that her wife's body was perfect, but she still wanted to be supportive to her.
When they graduated they never talked about it anymore, Vera thought Lisa was really over hating her body, but she actually wasn't.
She tried not to think about it but the feeling was too strong.
And now, all those comments that she got...
Luckily it was now October, so Lisa could wear hoodies all the time and not show her body.
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-Lissy! - Vera's voice woke her up. -What? - she said, trying to hide the tiredness. -We are late to breakfast, you should come downstairs. -Mhmm, I'm not hungry, go without me. -You sure? -Yeah.
And this continued for all the meals, all the days. Vera was concerned about it, but she wanted Lisa to open up to her, and not force her. Although Vera always brought some snacks to Lisa, even if she ate them only for making the blonde girl happy.
Lisa never came out of their room, just sometimes to go to the bathroom or take a shower.
Once they were chilling together on their bed, when suddenly Lisa was sweating really hard, even though she tried to hide it.
-Uhm, Lisa, you alright? -Yeah, yeah, why? -You're sweating. -Oh, yea, it's just so hot in here. -Lissy, it's October. In goddamn Sweden... -Huh?
-Lisa, what's happening? -I'm fine, I'm totally alr... - the word she was about to say disappeared in her throat. The air was ending, she came at the point that she couldn't breathe anymore, and suddenly, to her chocolate eyes, everything became dark.
-No, no, this is not happening... LISA, WAKE UP!!! PLEASE!! - Vera was screaming so hard that the kings luckily came into the room.
-Vera you alright? -No... it's... Lisa, she... she fainted! - Vera tried to say, while in tears.
They rushed on the bed and tried to wake her up. After some seconds Lisa was awake.
-Lis... Lisa!!! - King Wilhelm said, trying to hold in the tears. -What... what happened? -You fainted, Lissy... - Vera tried to say. -Oh... uhm, yeah, well, I'm fine now!! Vera gave a look to the kings. -Well, we are leaving you alone... - the kings said, went away and closed the door, but still standing behind it.
-Lissy, I wanted to tell you something... -What?
The kings already knew what she was going to say, since Vera told them about Lisa's problem.
-I'm... I'm concerned about you. You are barely eating and now you even fainted... did something happen? -Yeah, just... not hungry.
-Are you so sure about that? - Vera asked. The silence was the only hearable noise in the room.
-Some weeks ago - Lisa starts - I got some comments which said that I was fat and things like that, and I mean, I starved myself so that I could look skinnier...
Vera's eyes started pouring out water. -Lisa... why didn't you tell me? -I didn't want you to get concerned about me.. -Please, can you promise that you will tell me if you feel like that again? -Yeah.
-You look so perfect, those people are just bored and comment on celebrieties's posts. -Thanks, Ve.
Then everyday Vera reminded Lisa that she was perfect, that much times that Lisa after some months got even bored about it, but she still liked the feeling that she felt whenever Vera said that.
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okay, this was actually really sad.
i'm sorry for everyone who's actually going through this, you are perfect the way you are, God made you that way so that you could feel beautiful<3
btw i'm kinda in the mood to write again, so i will start posting a bit more
