«the night we met» || haobin

3rd chapter.

- Is it really you? Someone I had a relationship with five years ago, Hanbin asked me and took my arm.

- If so..I really want to apologize to you, This is what I've been wanting to do all this time. I'm really sorry, Zhang Hao. If it's you..

I couldn't believe that all this was really happening. First of all, in front of me stood the very person I cherished the most, who broke me and easily abandoned me, cheating on me. Secondly, he was standing here not just because of an accident, but in order for me to hire him, and most importantly, which is very hard to believe, he is now asking me for forgiveness.

I didn't know what to do, everything turned out to be so difficult. Now that I started to live normally without him, without memories of the past with him, he suddenly decided to ruin everything with his presence.  Also, I didn't know what to feel. How should I respond to his apology? In fact, I got different feelings from what just happened, but I wouldn't say that I'm glad that he deigned to appear in front of me after so much time.

I would understand even if it had only been a few months, or at least a year, but literally 5 years have passed, this is not a joke. But the last words he said took me by surprise. What does it mean if it's me? But only then it dawned on me.

— I honestly don't know what to say or what to do with you. I hope you understand the situation I'm in right now,  I told him, looking anywhere but at him.

— Yes, I understand.. But to be honest, for the whole time, I didn't know why I wanted to be here, why I even wanted to talk to you, and why I wanted to apologize to you so much. But still, being here, I was once again convinced why everything was like that. As you probably already realized, I have memory problems at the moment, because of.. because of the accident that happened. yeah, he said,
I was already thinking how to answer this, because I would never have expected something like this to happen to him, but he continued,

—But even after that incident, when I saw your photos in the album, I felt, how would I describe it? For some reason, it hurt me. I don't know why, what and how, but I have been struggling with these feelings for half a year. From these feelings, I thought and believed that I did something wrong that hurt you? And today I was convinced of this.

— I won't deny that you did the wrong thing then, and that's why I wouldn't want you here. It's very difficult for me, you know that we had a relationship, but later something happened that, I don't even know what, but you suddenly broke up with me, saying that you cheated. I hope that after these words you will forget about everything that happened and leave, I finally let you go, and I wouldn't want you to work here. Even though I don't have any feelings left for you, it's still very difficult. To see you every day, to remember all our happy moments, as well as unhappy ones. And I'm still hurting from those memories right now, so please leave me alone. I really hope that everything will get better for you, and your memories will return. Maybe then I would've talked to you about it. But today you're here because you don't remember anything, but I do. Every word you said that day - I know them by heart. And just because you don't remember doesn't mean I'll forgive you so easily. Maybe someday, yes, but not now, - with each word, it became more and more difficult for me to speak out, but I managed.

I had a feeling that after I looked into Hanbin's eyes, I would immediately cry, and unfortunately, this happened.

Hanbin didn't know what to do in sadness, he didn't want to just give up everything, his heart wouldn't let it happen. He searched for Zhang Hao for several months, going through all his acquaintances and former friends. But no one knew what had happened to him and where he was now. It so happened that one day, when he was returning to his home by car, he almost hit a man in whom he recognized the one he had been looking for for so long. He was extremely surprised that he didn't make a scandal out of it, but simply went on. Hanbin wanted to get out of the car and catch up with the guy, but realized that it was too late, and that he himself was not at all ready to listen to the whole truth.
And it so happened that from that very time every evening, after learning his work address, he came there and watched from afar as he got into his car and drove away. Until Hanbin saw that one day before Zhang Hao left, he pasted a paper on the front door of the bakery about looking for a new employee. So the whole idea came to send him a resume personally, which in the end did not end well, as he expected.

And now Hanbin was able to cry, but he held on with all his might. But his eyes looked as if he had just been crying for several hours in a row. And in the end, noticing how Zhang Hao shed tears from looking at him, he, too, could not restrain himself, and giving vent to tears, he turned around so as to calm himself.

Zhang Hao felt even worse from what he saw, he saw the tears of the guy for the first time. But he still couldn't figure it out.. Why? Why is he shedding tears when in fact he has almost completely forgotten me? These thoughts haunted him.

They had been standing like this for 10 minutes, and as Hanbin calmed down, he wanted to say something, but he was interrupted, as he thinks, by an employee.

— Zhang Hao, there is another person here who wants to meet you, and also about work, - he said, looking from one to the other.

— If it's not too much trouble, tell him to come over here, Taerae, - said Hao, smiling in his direction.

— Of course, he'll be right there!, after saying that, Taerae quickly headed towards the door.

Silence enveloped the room, they both knew that even if they needed to talk, it was definitely not here, not at work.

— As I understand it, you definitely won't take me as an employee. I'm sorry that I thought it was normal to come to you so unexpectedly at all. But I hope you'll at least agree to let us talk. Preferably outside of work, Hanbin said nervously, looking up at Hao again.

— I.., - but again Zhang Hao was interrupted, but now a guy unknown to both of them.

— I hope I'm not interrupting, I'm here about the job, he said towards Zhang Hao.

Hanbin already thought that they were familiar with each other, but then Zhang Hao answered,

— Then you come to me, how should I address you? - he said to the guy with white hair, smilingly.

— You can call me..

Guess who it is!!