Chaos

Change

Friday the 13th 2013.

I decided to let my messy hair down. After, I applied some makeup. I wore a little black dress with pitch black stockings and black platform boots.

As I walked into school, heads just turned, Girls were staring, probably whispering dirt about me while guys where whistling, checking me out. I just smiled flirtatiously, not wanting to disappoint them after all. When I met up with the guys, they're jaws dropped. "Why hello, what are you doing later?" he asked with a ridiculous low voice. "None of your business, little boy." I answered, just as playfully. "Come on, please consider?" he tried again. "Okay seriously, no. Plus aren't you still hung up on 'Lola'." I stated. Preston was frozen. "I think you look great." Brud said while scratching the back of his head, giving me the 'Let's talk, NOW!' look. "That was kind off what I was going for." I joked, mouthing a 'no thank you'. Preston still wasn't moving. "Hello!" I shouted waving my hand in his face. "I'm sorry, what?!" he replied. "Be careful not to zone out in class like that." Auzzie said with a smirk on his face. "Sorry. You look, different." he answered sheepishly. "Oh, thanks?" I responded awkwardly. "Well let's get to class!" Brud said, breaking the tension and we headed to first period.

At lunch, Dancy sat with us. Preston and her were snuggling and I was just weirded out. Brud was still trying to speak to me but I won't give in. "So what's your plan for your company?" Preston asked. "I don't know. I guess I'm giving up. You all seem happy and it was only a stupid dream. It's not actually going to happen. And I have other things on my mind." I responded. "Like what?" Dancy questioned. "None of your business!" I replied sharply, as if on reflexe. "Calm down. I know we don't get along and we haven't had the best history but we used to be friends. And you're one of Preston's best friends and I want us to be friends too. We don't have to be besties or anything but can we at least try to get along?" she asked genuinely. "I uh, I don't know." I answered before leaving. The rest of the day basically proceeded of tension between me and Preston, Brud trying to get a hold of me, and Auzzie trying not to interfere with the situation.

I unlocked the door of my empty apartment. I actually live alone but everyone thinks I live with my supposedly 'family'. I changed into a loose top and army sweat pants.

I was about to call Beta but the doorbell surprisingly rang. "Hi, may I help you.." I started but paused when I realized who I was talking to. The person standing in front of me is the one I've been trying to hide this place is here. "Why and where did you get this address?" I questioned, unhappy. "I came to see if you are okay because ever since you fainted yesterday, you haven't been acting like yourself lately. You gave up on the company overnight, changed yourself completely and pretty much screamed in my girlfriend's face. I wanted to see you so I asked the guys where you were and they said you went home except, I didn't know where you lived so I asked Auzzie to search your student profile and it was written you lived here." he answered very fast. "Well I'm fine." I said for the hundredth time. "I just feel like, everybody's moving forward except me. I realized that I can't keep acting like a little girl, stuck at a stop forever. I need change, I want it." I explained to him. I partially lied, telling kind of the truth. He got up and left. His worried face was dark. I wasn't going to say 'I'm sorry, I just like you and am jealous you're practically dating our enemy, well not anymore'. But, I don't think I convinced Preston.

I was either doing homework, listening to music or chatting with Astrea, Nymph. and Ikaros. Well, Alpha was basically standing in a corner watching Tomoki while Astea stuffed her face and Nymph explained their adventures of the day. Angeloids can't sleep so I entertain myself as much as possible. Except sometimes, I can't help but wonder what's my purpose in this world. I'm not a true angeloid because I have no master, and I'm not human either without a soul. So why am I still here?