House of everything and nothing

Not proud of

I did something tonight that I'm not proud of. I opened up. A little at first and then a lot. He said it was okay. And I believed him.

I've know him since forever. We're friends. Always have been. I never thought I would do that. Never thought I would let someone convince me to do that. I feel sick.

He wouldn't do that to me...a friend since second grade. Who he??? He wouldn't betray me like that.

I'm not scared of what people will say if he did, I really couldn't give two shits but to be used like that and to allow it to happen...

God forgive me. Please. He was the only guy to give me attention like that. I don't feel like me anymore. Oh God, what did I do.