As I grew older
The world's just became colder
Everything seemed so distant
And since then I've never been nothing but reluctant
Afraid I will never belong
I told myself I have to be strong
And because there's nothing to be sure off
I needed to be refrain from being someone soft
To be able to please everyone I know
For them to keep me and not to throw
But as I changed through the process
I came to know myself a lot less
I lost myself for acceptance
Because I thought even for a bit I'll shorten the distance
As I look back again
I question myself "Was this a life well spent"
What I hoped was nothing grand
But look at now on where I stand
A place, somewhere unknown
I became a stranger of my own
Now I don't know who the real me is
I wanted my younger self to know that she's the one I miss
To change was a dumb decision
I've harbored nothing but false emotions
Please if anybody's out there
Take off this mask that I wear
Someone please be out there
I think life's something I couldn't bear.
I'm sorry I wasn't able to stay true
If only from the start I knew...
And i become aware
I've lived life with despair
