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September 7/28 4:00 am ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• I couldn't sleep because of a dream that I've been happening for a while that I was married to Kendu still and he pushed me into the door handle and abused me because I lost our child I really couldn't sleep I keep waking up and Usher is sleep and I don't want to wake him up because he has work in the morning and I want him to get his rest
I want to the bathroom and cried then I heard a knock on the door
Baby you ok?
Yea I said unlocking the door
Your crying he said whipping my tears of my face with his thumb
What's wrong?
I keep having this dream that's really hurts
What's the dream about?
Me and Kendu still married he pushed me into door my back hit the handle he kept punching and hitting me all of that was because I lost the baby that we've been wanting for a while I started crying more he gave me a hug and kissed my forehead
It's going to be ok he kept saying
I don't want us to every be like like that and I don't ever want you to leave me
Baby I'm here forever I will never leave you he kissed my forehead again
Don't leave me please pls
I won't I promise I just put my head and his chest and tried not to cry after a couple minutes I was finally able to stop my tears he cuddled me for the rest of the night I was able to sleep ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• September 8/28 4:00 pm
I had work today so I to bring Usher with me today while Usher took Mari with him
Hey Sean I said giving him a hug
Hey sis
You ready for this song?
Yea
Uncle Sean Usher said running to Diddy
Hey nephew he picked him and hugged him
You look just like your momma
Say I know
So you wrote song?
Yea
After work I want home I changed my clothes then cooked dinner when I was making my plate Usher called me
Hey bae Hey zaddy Open up the door K
I hung up the phone and opened up the door he walked in I closed the door and I kissed him
No I missed you all day
You never told me you were coming over I missed you too
I came to just drop by and Mari wanted to see her mommy
Well I am better than you
No your not
Were you making dinner it smells good
Yea I was making dinner
Can I get a plate?
Yes sure I made him a plate I sat down
Babe since I'm tired of always tired of us having the go back n forth how about we can start looking for some homes for us
I would love that
I don't want to move back into the house because of the Mary situation
It's ok baby we can start fresh somewhere else
Yea
After we ate some food I needed a shower work today was a mess when I was in the shower I felt some arms wrapping around me and kissing on my neck
Hi babe I know it was him because the way he kisses me
Hey beautiful
What are you trying to do
Kiss you
So boo has been calling
Why?
Because he wants to talk but I don't want to
Good
Oh babe remember when I thought I was pregnant I'm not I looked down I'm sad because I really want another child but it's fine
Baby it's fine
I know I really wanted another child
Baby we will have another one when the time comes
Can you help me with my back
Of course baby after our shower we laid down and cuddled I fell asleep kinda fast because I just took a shower
